RIP to DEAR VAL

Dearest Val,

I would like to thank you for 3 things. I would like to thank you for making me more concious of myself and everything that i do. I never thought something like that would happen. I really thought i could get u out during the holidays to party, to forget about everything else. I did know u have problems, but i didn't take the first step to approach u. It is sad and i feel quite stupid to have to wait till something like this to happen before i think about what life is and how easy it is to lose a significant presence. If anyone told me that this would happen, i would have told them to fuck off and i would treat it as a joke. Did u know? I honestly hoped that someone, preferably u, to pop up and say "JUST JOKING!". I don't mind being pissed off for a while, or to have a shock or scare. As long as u are ok. I still remember the last conversion that i had with u.

Do u?

We were talking about our traffic police exams.:) U told me that if i put a 20 cent coin under my carpet before the test and when i was done i was suppose to give the instructor the coin? U said i would pass.:) Do u remember my reaction when u told me that? I laughed and said "AHAHA BULLSHIT SIA!!" and u replied "ZHEN DE!!!! HAHAHAHA!!" I don't mind that being our last conversion at all. At least i got to hear ur laugh one last time, and see u smile. Something that we all fail to treasure at the start. I will miss u! Even though i wasn't as close as yh was, as a friend, i am still devasted. I mean it. I said that i wouldn't cry, yet even as i'm typing this now, i'm sobbing in my room. I don't wanna pretend that i'm ok.

But nevermind that, the two other things that i want to thank you for.:) Are TLC.:) Do u still remember? In muay thai last time? They would ask us if we wanted Table, Ladder, Chair or Tender Loving Care? Contrary to that, Table Ladder Chair was the softer one. HAHA!

I remember the first time i met u in muay thai, i was so intimidated by u. One funny thing though, u may be pissed, but hahaha! What are friends for yea? I was asking my fren, eh that one boy or girl? HAHA! Then that time we were lining up for the kicks, my leg was quite sore from the kicks from the guys, then when u stepped forward to kick, i was like "EH EH RELAC RELAC!!". And u really kicked softly.:) Thanks for that time too yea. Ltr my leg break. LOL! I also k-p-o when u and yi hong they all playing monster hunter. Then i kept giving stupid questions.

And when we would have dinner after training? I would eat 2 meals, then all of u were like WTF?! HAHAHA!

This memory is quite funny and cute too. When we were smoking outside sch at that void deck? Then yh ragu and i ran across the road, u were left standing there shouting "OOOOI!!!". Cross road oso so scared. :p

I bet one of ur most awkward moments with me was when we went zouk for the first time? Where i dragged u into the middle and everyone else was trying to make u dance. Damn that must have been awkward, no? Ur body language was so obvious! HAHAHA!!! Then everytime msn always use PENGZ ar. HAHHAHAHA!! Pengz Zai! VALERIE! I will always treasure a friend like u! I will always try to make time to visit u together with YH.

I don't like to make friends for life. I wanna make friends FOREVER! Hopefully wherever u are, u are doing fine. If got any problem, just shout "PENGZ!" and chiong only! Got anybody make u, just muay thai kick them, ur shin still very the hard, THAT ONE I KNOW!

If i can, i will come down to ur wake ltr, and i will try to make it for ur cremation too! RIP DEAR VAL! U will always be sorely missed.

23rd March 1990 - 5th February 2010