K my fav Ben&Jerry's Ice-cream combos are here.:)
I go take first. Then i shall blog.
I'm still here. LOL! wtf man... FB until lazy take. K i think i WILL get up and take it now.
*Brief Intervention*
Done with the Ben & Jerry's Ice-Cream liao!
K currently msning with LP, Twin Brother, TTP and Wife.
Now like boring only. K nvm, I shall blog about this ENTIRE day!
WAKING UP FOR SCHOOL
Guess what time i finally stop nua-ing and got up from bed. My lesson starts at 9:15.
I got up at like 830am? Wasn't in the best of moods, never have been, for school at least. I was like... Sianned. Really sian. Then like dun wan go school like that, but have to, because i want to, because i realised that i haven pon this module yet, and i DO NOT intend on doing so.:) [Good Boy Seh!]
Tell u what.
what.
K lamed.
TO SCHOOL
Today on the way to school, i was so aware of my physical space. On the mrt, i felt like i had spikes or something on me. It was like, i wanted everyone to be like 1 metre away from me. Seriously. 1 metre. No less.
This girl got like alittle closer than the others, my face changed. Totally. She was like 2-3 steps away? And I DID NOT LIKE IT. Even if chio bu, i oso dun wan. I don't want any physical contact. Don't TOUCH me.
Irritating...
On my way to school, guess what was on my mind?
Nvm.
Don't Guess.
Unless UR Ronald or Yang Han or Kino or ZJ.
Something to do with ICE ICE BABY~
Yea.
Thats right...
Ice Blast. [WHICH TOTALLY RUINED MY MOOD EVEN MORE]
Guess i'll just have to settle with, as Ronald says, the GURU brand. LOL
CLASS TIME
Walked into class at about 930? Around there.
Apparently i had just missed a session of the GREAT SINGAPORE WORKOUT. [Glad i took my time walking to school.] I sat down and immediately, my faci pulled out a JUMPSTYLE video. I was like... WHAT?! But eventually i got into the mood for class.
Funny shit. Seriously. I want lessons to be like that from now on. I mean it. Fun. And WE LEARN. We workout. We sweat, and we get Healthier. Both physically and mentally.
1ST BREAK PERIOD
Didn't go out. Just stayed in class and nua-ed the whole time, sliding around the martial arts room, doing some random tecktonik moves, and learning the CARAMEL dance. HAHA funny dance. Act Cute only. :p
2ND MEETING
Nothing much, just more DDR and stuff, and even more tecktonik and caramel dancing. OH OH. Wondergirls and SNSD dance moves. Learning from youtube. Damn funny! Even got recorded down. You all should seriously see Ronald Eng Wei Yong. DAMN idiotic! But at least he made me happy for awhile.
2ND BREAK PERIOD
Asked Meng and Ronald to accompany me to shell, to check on the stock. AND WE WASTED OUR BLOODY ENERGY! No stock! Zzzz. Ahhh nvm, i still have, so still can wait. They better come soon though.
You know what? I'm lazy to write anything more liao.
K cya guys.
Oh and thks Jing Square! I'm glad u do take notice.:) Just that i don't know what the problem is. I want my free meal k? HA!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Klass-ified
Right now... I just think.. I'm dead. Wanna know why?
Oh well, even if you don't want to read, here it is.
I think... I've been dead since secondary school. Because... That was the time, where i lost my laughter. I wear my laughing face most of the time. To be a joker, lamer, nonsense-maker. Why?
I can't laugh truthfully anymore... I've lost the essence of laughing...
Hear my laughter
See my smile
I'm pretty sure their all conditioned responses already. I laugh to fit in, i laugh because it is supposedly healthier. I laugh, not because it is funny anymore. Those are just hollow cries of evidence that i'm dead.
I've been told, that a person's true personality comes out when they are tipsy or drunk. I laughed WHOLEHEARTLY for 1 hour AT LEAST, NON-STOP, the first time i got tipsy.
After that. I've realised. My laughter has been hollow. Empty, non-existant. My smiles are fake too. I just smile, because i don't want people to hate me. I smile, because i look friendlier that way. If i don't smile, i look pissed, i look murderous [thks to whoever that said that to me. Seriously.]
Secondary school. I tot i was stepping one emo. Black and all that shit. Guess what?
I'm turning darker inside by the second. Literally too.
I don't need someone to save me.
I don't need sympathy.
I don't need.
I don't.
Because i doubt.
Because i'm a non-believer.
Because i don't want to.
Because i'm pretty sure, there is no one.
I'm tired of wearing masks.
I don't wanna to go to school anymore.
I wanna sit down and just fade away.
I want to observe.
I then want to think about what i've observed.
I want to see people, yet i don't want them to see me.
Isn't that like a ghost?
I think i am a ghost.
Ghost can't laugh.
Ghost do what they want.
I do what i want.
Yet.
I do not want what i do.
Disgusting.
Contradicting isn't it?
Do you understand me?
You will never understand me.
My world is shut out from here.
Right now, even i don't have the keys.
But when i find it.
What do you think i'll do?
Don't even think about it.
Take a listen.
To my music.
Wait.
Don't.
You can't understand anyway.
I'll just give a hint.
Music makes me dream.
Dreaming makes me think.
And i am not the most optimistic person on earth.
HAHA!
Was that real?
Was that fake?
Can you tell?
If there was a tone in it.
If i said that right in your faces.
Would you understand?
Can you interpret?
Time.
Money.
Feelings.
Health.
All about me huh?
But you shouldn't care.
Because i don't care.
Caring is Sharing?
That proves i ain't sharing or caring huh?
Guess that's right.
Why is this klassified?
Make a guess.
This may be one of the few things you can guess correctly.
Go Go Go Go Go...
I think i said this before.
Lots of barriers.
Know what?
No you don't.
I'll just tell you.
Their getting thicker.
Interpret.
I'll tell you though.
Many things are related to it.
Thicker.
Heavier.
Soon i'll just sink.
This.
Is.
Darker.
Than.
BLACK.
I'm not done.
You thought that was the end didn't you.
Don't lie.
Because i'll just catch you.
Lying...
Most fun thing to do?
I think quite so.
I lie.
Everyday.
Am i lying?
I tell u that i lie everyday.
I said.
I tell u that i lie everyday.
WHAT SAY YOU?
Wait.
I don't want to hear it anymore.
Now.
I have something that i want.
Catch.
Get the catch?
Oh.
I forgot.
I'm too confusing already.
Read.
Continue reading.
People.
Just continue.
Satisfy me.
Feed me.
Tell me.
Show me.
Care for me.
Because i can't.
Do.
It.
For myself.
You must have tot something dirty for that.
Lies.
Emotional.
Psychic.
Make me up.
Understand?
I doubt you do.
Even my parents don't understand.
I've been told by my relatives.
They don't understand what i do sometimes.
They LIED.
They.
Don't.
Understand.
What i do.
MOST.
OF.
THE.
TIME.
I'm like an ant.
Apparently.
Crowding around those electrical wires.
For who knows what.
I don't want to try.
I'm thinking.
How?
Who do you think you are?
Wondering?
Wondering about?
Wondering about who this question is for?
Continue wondering.
If you wonder.
Then you'll never get the answer.
There are ONLY two answers.
Think.
But i think everyone will just misunderstand.
And why am i somehow happy about it?
FUCK THIS SHIT.
HAHA!
I'm growing.
Something i don't know.
Into.
Go figure.
Should be easy.
How does it feel?
I don't know.
What am i feeling now?
I think i should give a chance.
Hey people.
One chance.
I may give more.
But i'm afraid.
Afraid.
That.
I'll be gone.
Before.
Another chance comes.
Oh well, even if you don't want to read, here it is.
I think... I've been dead since secondary school. Because... That was the time, where i lost my laughter. I wear my laughing face most of the time. To be a joker, lamer, nonsense-maker. Why?
I can't laugh truthfully anymore... I've lost the essence of laughing...
Hear my laughter
See my smile
I'm pretty sure their all conditioned responses already. I laugh to fit in, i laugh because it is supposedly healthier. I laugh, not because it is funny anymore. Those are just hollow cries of evidence that i'm dead.
I've been told, that a person's true personality comes out when they are tipsy or drunk. I laughed WHOLEHEARTLY for 1 hour AT LEAST, NON-STOP, the first time i got tipsy.
After that. I've realised. My laughter has been hollow. Empty, non-existant. My smiles are fake too. I just smile, because i don't want people to hate me. I smile, because i look friendlier that way. If i don't smile, i look pissed, i look murderous [thks to whoever that said that to me. Seriously.]
Secondary school. I tot i was stepping one emo. Black and all that shit. Guess what?
I'm turning darker inside by the second. Literally too.
I don't need someone to save me.
I don't need sympathy.
I don't need.
I don't.
Because i doubt.
Because i'm a non-believer.
Because i don't want to.
Because i'm pretty sure, there is no one.
I'm tired of wearing masks.
I don't wanna to go to school anymore.
I wanna sit down and just fade away.
I want to observe.
I then want to think about what i've observed.
I want to see people, yet i don't want them to see me.
Isn't that like a ghost?
I think i am a ghost.
Ghost can't laugh.
Ghost do what they want.
I do what i want.
Yet.
I do not want what i do.
Disgusting.
Contradicting isn't it?
Do you understand me?
You will never understand me.
My world is shut out from here.
Right now, even i don't have the keys.
But when i find it.
What do you think i'll do?
Don't even think about it.
Take a listen.
To my music.
Wait.
Don't.
You can't understand anyway.
I'll just give a hint.
Music makes me dream.
Dreaming makes me think.
And i am not the most optimistic person on earth.
HAHA!
Was that real?
Was that fake?
Can you tell?
If there was a tone in it.
If i said that right in your faces.
Would you understand?
Can you interpret?
Time.
Money.
Feelings.
Health.
All about me huh?
But you shouldn't care.
Because i don't care.
Caring is Sharing?
That proves i ain't sharing or caring huh?
Guess that's right.
Why is this klassified?
Make a guess.
This may be one of the few things you can guess correctly.
Go Go Go Go Go...
I think i said this before.
Lots of barriers.
Know what?
No you don't.
I'll just tell you.
Their getting thicker.
Interpret.
I'll tell you though.
Many things are related to it.
Thicker.
Heavier.
Soon i'll just sink.
This.
Is.
Darker.
Than.
BLACK.
I'm not done.
You thought that was the end didn't you.
Don't lie.
Because i'll just catch you.
Lying...
Most fun thing to do?
I think quite so.
I lie.
Everyday.
Am i lying?
I tell u that i lie everyday.
I said.
I tell u that i lie everyday.
WHAT SAY YOU?
Wait.
I don't want to hear it anymore.
Now.
I have something that i want.
Catch.
Get the catch?
Oh.
I forgot.
I'm too confusing already.
Read.
Continue reading.
People.
Just continue.
Satisfy me.
Feed me.
Tell me.
Show me.
Care for me.
Because i can't.
Do.
It.
For myself.
You must have tot something dirty for that.
Lies.
Emotional.
Psychic.
Make me up.
Understand?
I doubt you do.
Even my parents don't understand.
I've been told by my relatives.
They don't understand what i do sometimes.
They LIED.
They.
Don't.
Understand.
What i do.
MOST.
OF.
THE.
TIME.
I'm like an ant.
Apparently.
Crowding around those electrical wires.
For who knows what.
I don't want to try.
I'm thinking.
How?
Who do you think you are?
Wondering?
Wondering about?
Wondering about who this question is for?
Continue wondering.
If you wonder.
Then you'll never get the answer.
There are ONLY two answers.
Think.
But i think everyone will just misunderstand.
And why am i somehow happy about it?
FUCK THIS SHIT.
HAHA!
I'm growing.
Something i don't know.
Into.
Go figure.
Should be easy.
How does it feel?
I don't know.
What am i feeling now?
I think i should give a chance.
Hey people.
One chance.
I may give more.
But i'm afraid.
Afraid.
That.
I'll be gone.
Before.
Another chance comes.
Friday, November 20, 2009
PASS PASS PASS!
ONE HIT K.O! Thats what needs to happen tml. First time's the charm for me, well... So far. HAHAHA! BTT first time pass, FTT first time pass. TP OSO! I WAN FIRST TIME PASS!!!! I'm still coughing like shit. Idiot. But hopefully tml i don't get affected by it tml.
That time when Kiong ask me whether i confident, i replied : OF COURSE AR! HAHAHAH! Now ar... WAH... Starting to feel a little ueasy. AHHHHHH!!!!! I need Ben&Jerry Ice-Cream now. LIKE NOW. LIKE *turns head around* and *poof* Ben&Jerry Ice-Cream with a spoon there for me to eat, on the table. NOW. @$%^!
NVM. I will study YH's driving manual for ONE last time TODAY, before i set off tml. Like.... FWAH.... I really wanna eat Ben&Jerry! T.T
Today stupid lor... The instructor guy... I called him, and asked him whether got slot for lesson anot, today and tml morning. Then he say, he will get back to me. THEN..... NOW WHAT TIME ALREADY?! Still haven even SMS me. Seriously WTF. Zzzzz.
K nvm... First i talk about school today.
OH WAIT. I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL TODAY! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL! Well... Technically i did, but... Half the class left, and most of us went to the cinema.:) We watched... PARANORMAL ACTIVITY!!! WHOOOO!!!!
I was like so so so desperate to watch that movie.:) Cause like cool only.:) Razmi [Razmi's Theme Song : Satisfaction RAZMI REMIX! Supposedly playing here] even forced himself to finish his pizza just so that we could pull another one of our classmates to watch it.:) HAHAHAHHA!!! DAMN FUNNY! Eat until left the last mouthful then the pizza fell on the floor. LOL! Then i passed him my last bite to complete the challenge. HAHHA!!!!
PARANORMAL ACTIVITY
It was not bad... Quite funny actually! AHAH! Cause of the couple fights. DAMN STUPID AND FUNNY I TELL U! Typical i give u promise, but somehow manage to weave and achieving something that i DID promise, but did not not break the promise in the process.:) Got one part, SIA LAH. LIKE DAMN SCARY FOR THE GIRL LAH! As in the main character girl. I shall not give spoilers for this particular movie. Cause this movie if given spoiler... Really spoil the movie. But movie not bad, just that i think my bunch of friends and i were kinda noisy just now? AHAHAH!! Laugh laugh, when it is suppose to be scary. Which was... But just humourous too.:)
Now for my parents!!!
DADDY & MOMMY
They came back earlier this morning, at like i think 1 plus? I think i was asleep already. Yar. I was asleep already. Cause no recollection of them making noise, just that my aunt tell me they should be back at like 1 plus.
Can't say i wasn't elated when they came back home.:) Safe and sound.:) But the fact that they didn't let me drive the car really ticked me off alittle. HAHAH! Oh well. I'll pass tml and DRIVE MY DAD'S CAR! HAHAHH!!!!
Anyway... My dad cooked dinner for the family today. I was sleeping, apparently when i got home from my so called "class-outing", i just slumped into bed and fell asleep. Dinner was great.:) But i didn't eat alot, well, not as much as i usually do. And once again.. My dad complain again... SO MUCH RICE! Then my usual response... Then i eat lah... To which he settled down. LOL Like little kid sia when i type like that. HAHHAH!!!!
Oh well. I don't care about the car thingy, cause i'll drive their car sooner or later.:) For now, i'll just patiently wait. And HOPEFULLY. Tml i PASS! WHOOO!!!!!
K. I go find some other thing to do.:)
That time when Kiong ask me whether i confident, i replied : OF COURSE AR! HAHAHAH! Now ar... WAH... Starting to feel a little ueasy. AHHHHHH!!!!! I need Ben&Jerry Ice-Cream now. LIKE NOW. LIKE *turns head around* and *poof* Ben&Jerry Ice-Cream with a spoon there for me to eat, on the table. NOW. @$%^!
NVM. I will study YH's driving manual for ONE last time TODAY, before i set off tml. Like.... FWAH.... I really wanna eat Ben&Jerry! T.T
Today stupid lor... The instructor guy... I called him, and asked him whether got slot for lesson anot, today and tml morning. Then he say, he will get back to me. THEN..... NOW WHAT TIME ALREADY?! Still haven even SMS me. Seriously WTF. Zzzzz.
K nvm... First i talk about school today.
OH WAIT. I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL TODAY! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL! Well... Technically i did, but... Half the class left, and most of us went to the cinema.:) We watched... PARANORMAL ACTIVITY!!! WHOOOO!!!!
I was like so so so desperate to watch that movie.:) Cause like cool only.:) Razmi [Razmi's Theme Song : Satisfaction RAZMI REMIX! Supposedly playing here] even forced himself to finish his pizza just so that we could pull another one of our classmates to watch it.:) HAHAHAHHA!!! DAMN FUNNY! Eat until left the last mouthful then the pizza fell on the floor. LOL! Then i passed him my last bite to complete the challenge. HAHHA!!!!
PARANORMAL ACTIVITY
It was not bad... Quite funny actually! AHAH! Cause of the couple fights. DAMN STUPID AND FUNNY I TELL U! Typical i give u promise, but somehow manage to weave and achieving something that i DID promise, but did not not break the promise in the process.:) Got one part, SIA LAH. LIKE DAMN SCARY FOR THE GIRL LAH! As in the main character girl. I shall not give spoilers for this particular movie. Cause this movie if given spoiler... Really spoil the movie. But movie not bad, just that i think my bunch of friends and i were kinda noisy just now? AHAHAH!! Laugh laugh, when it is suppose to be scary. Which was... But just humourous too.:)
Now for my parents!!!
DADDY & MOMMY
They came back earlier this morning, at like i think 1 plus? I think i was asleep already. Yar. I was asleep already. Cause no recollection of them making noise, just that my aunt tell me they should be back at like 1 plus.
Can't say i wasn't elated when they came back home.:) Safe and sound.:) But the fact that they didn't let me drive the car really ticked me off alittle. HAHAH! Oh well. I'll pass tml and DRIVE MY DAD'S CAR! HAHAHH!!!!
Anyway... My dad cooked dinner for the family today. I was sleeping, apparently when i got home from my so called "class-outing", i just slumped into bed and fell asleep. Dinner was great.:) But i didn't eat alot, well, not as much as i usually do. And once again.. My dad complain again... SO MUCH RICE! Then my usual response... Then i eat lah... To which he settled down. LOL Like little kid sia when i type like that. HAHHAH!!!!
Oh well. I don't care about the car thingy, cause i'll drive their car sooner or later.:) For now, i'll just patiently wait. And HOPEFULLY. Tml i PASS! WHOOO!!!!!
K. I go find some other thing to do.:)
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
To Dear ZJ and IKA
ZJ. I don't know whether you will read this, because i don't think i will give you this link. But today, YH and I were talking about you.
I'm still quite bummed because this is the first time i cannot offer any help to a friend. YH told me because you are older, you have witnessed and experienced things that i have yet to. It is because so, my words cannot do any help.
Although i have not been through most of what you have been through. I just wanna say, no hardship cannot be overcome. The first thing, is get past yourself, because that is how we grow. That i know, because i still seem to have a shell of the past with me, which i still cannot leave entirely behind. I can smoke with you, i can sit with you, i can be the listening ear. I've been leaned on, so i can offer my shoulder as a friend. I know we are both guys, and that we all have ego.
But i feel, that it is okay, to drop your barrier and defences once in a while. That i know too, because i still bury my heart deep within multiple layers of fortresses. That time, when i stayed over at your house with Angie and Yang Han, i kept quiet all the way. Although i have never dropped it all before, but i have dropped my defences bit by bit and it has helped me.:) Confused you may be, unsettled your heart may be. Call me a k-p-o, i don't care. You say that you are a pessimistic, and although i may not be the brightest of people around, i am still confident that i CAN lend a helping hand. Because it sucks to see a friend like you being down in this state.
Cheer up eh ZJ?
IKA. Ms stiki!! I've heard of the news, and i am deeply sorry for what has happened. I will not tell you that it was her time. Because we all want our parents to be there forever. When i lost my grandfather, i cried like a baby, maybe even worse. The thing that shocked me most, was that, i wasn't really close with my grandfather. I didn't really like him when i was younger. Yet i shed tears when i saw him laying at the hospital bed motionless, and because of that, i am sure. That i am unable to comprehend what you are going through right now.
We may not be the closest of friends, but i hope that you will stay strong, and not do anything foolish. There must be no regrets, for each situation you regret, your heart grows heavier, and soon one will not be able to pull themselves up anymore. You may not be able to talk about your mother for period of time without losing control over your emotions, that i can understand, but getting through this difficult time is crucial. You have a big group of friends waiting right beside you to support you all the way.:) And we will always try our best to help.:) This wound is deep, we all know it, we would wish not to experience it, however it will and must happen, therefore, our ears will always be open, our shoulders will be there for you to cry on.
Stay strong STIKI! Hope to see you in school soon.:) I'll give you a hug k!
I'm still quite bummed because this is the first time i cannot offer any help to a friend. YH told me because you are older, you have witnessed and experienced things that i have yet to. It is because so, my words cannot do any help.
Although i have not been through most of what you have been through. I just wanna say, no hardship cannot be overcome. The first thing, is get past yourself, because that is how we grow. That i know, because i still seem to have a shell of the past with me, which i still cannot leave entirely behind. I can smoke with you, i can sit with you, i can be the listening ear. I've been leaned on, so i can offer my shoulder as a friend. I know we are both guys, and that we all have ego.
But i feel, that it is okay, to drop your barrier and defences once in a while. That i know too, because i still bury my heart deep within multiple layers of fortresses. That time, when i stayed over at your house with Angie and Yang Han, i kept quiet all the way. Although i have never dropped it all before, but i have dropped my defences bit by bit and it has helped me.:) Confused you may be, unsettled your heart may be. Call me a k-p-o, i don't care. You say that you are a pessimistic, and although i may not be the brightest of people around, i am still confident that i CAN lend a helping hand. Because it sucks to see a friend like you being down in this state.
Cheer up eh ZJ?
IKA. Ms stiki!! I've heard of the news, and i am deeply sorry for what has happened. I will not tell you that it was her time. Because we all want our parents to be there forever. When i lost my grandfather, i cried like a baby, maybe even worse. The thing that shocked me most, was that, i wasn't really close with my grandfather. I didn't really like him when i was younger. Yet i shed tears when i saw him laying at the hospital bed motionless, and because of that, i am sure. That i am unable to comprehend what you are going through right now.
We may not be the closest of friends, but i hope that you will stay strong, and not do anything foolish. There must be no regrets, for each situation you regret, your heart grows heavier, and soon one will not be able to pull themselves up anymore. You may not be able to talk about your mother for period of time without losing control over your emotions, that i can understand, but getting through this difficult time is crucial. You have a big group of friends waiting right beside you to support you all the way.:) And we will always try our best to help.:) This wound is deep, we all know it, we would wish not to experience it, however it will and must happen, therefore, our ears will always be open, our shoulders will be there for you to cry on.
Stay strong STIKI! Hope to see you in school soon.:) I'll give you a hug k!
Think Of It As...
I've just got back home from a slack session today. Met YH after his driving, cause i couldn't get to sleep, didn't feel like sleeping, and i wanna slack outside, DAMN SIAN.
So i met YH at the 187 bus-stop near our hse. Then... the usual... Smoke smoke smoke, walk walk walk, chat chat chat, eat eat eat. We walked all the way to Bukit Gombak to eat some prata. I'm pretty sure alot of people will be disappointed at the amount of sticks i took today. But... I've already disappointed alot of people.
Throughout the slack session, i ranted at YH about my sibilings and other stuff, which i can't seem to recall now. Short-memory-loss liao. Zzzz.
YH and i were chatting about our driving and stuff, until we came to the topic of N&G. I will not care to list out their names. I've already almost forgotten them. I don't want to remember them anymore in fact, just another not-worth it distraction. YH and i were contemplating about whether we should make a chalet this holiday. Well... We're stuck. Because of those two idiots. Oh fuck. I don't give a shit.
But talking about it... Made me understand.
Trust is hard to give, but even harder to earn.
I can give trust, but if it is thrown away, high chance you won't ever get it again. N. I told Ragu, i would be there for you with him and YH when you fall. I've changed my mind. I won't let you fall. I throw you down even further, G is not of a concern anymore if you fall. You would have lost ALMOST everything, but i WILL make you lose everything.
You strained our friendships, i'll help you cut them off.:) Isn't that so nice of me.:)
I hope, i get drunk infront of the two of you.
You said you were tipsy, ok lets just take it JUST a step further, you two were drunk. I'll be drunk, and i'll say things that i WANT to say, do things that i WANT to do. And my answer to my actions? Oh i was drunk, i couldn't control what i was doing.:) Seems like a nice excuse huh? But i think it will sound EXTREMELY familiar.:) I'm just saying.:)
So i met YH at the 187 bus-stop near our hse. Then... the usual... Smoke smoke smoke, walk walk walk, chat chat chat, eat eat eat. We walked all the way to Bukit Gombak to eat some prata. I'm pretty sure alot of people will be disappointed at the amount of sticks i took today. But... I've already disappointed alot of people.
Throughout the slack session, i ranted at YH about my sibilings and other stuff, which i can't seem to recall now. Short-memory-loss liao. Zzzz.
YH and i were chatting about our driving and stuff, until we came to the topic of N&G. I will not care to list out their names. I've already almost forgotten them. I don't want to remember them anymore in fact, just another not-worth it distraction. YH and i were contemplating about whether we should make a chalet this holiday. Well... We're stuck. Because of those two idiots. Oh fuck. I don't give a shit.
But talking about it... Made me understand.
Trust is hard to give, but even harder to earn.
I can give trust, but if it is thrown away, high chance you won't ever get it again. N. I told Ragu, i would be there for you with him and YH when you fall. I've changed my mind. I won't let you fall. I throw you down even further, G is not of a concern anymore if you fall. You would have lost ALMOST everything, but i WILL make you lose everything.
You strained our friendships, i'll help you cut them off.:) Isn't that so nice of me.:)
I hope, i get drunk infront of the two of you.
You said you were tipsy, ok lets just take it JUST a step further, you two were drunk. I'll be drunk, and i'll say things that i WANT to say, do things that i WANT to do. And my answer to my actions? Oh i was drunk, i couldn't control what i was doing.:) Seems like a nice excuse huh? But i think it will sound EXTREMELY familiar.:) I'm just saying.:)
Monday, November 16, 2009
I think it may continue like that until i go train again.
Sunday, which was yesterday, royston sort of convinced me to go for NUFC's match. HAHA against this SONG BO FC! First time i see a team with a more stupid team name than ours. HAHHAHHA!!
Anyway, when i reached the match place right.. I wasn't like motivated for the match or anything. So... Solution... U know... Which... put me STRAIGHT into adrenaline. Crazy shit. My heart was beating like mad, just ask Royston TWIN BROTHER! He felt my pulse. HAHA!
I got subbed in, in the second half of the match. Still not wanting to run or anything. HAHA!
Apparently the team took a video. So here it is.:)
My MOST relac game EVER. HAAH!!
I'm the guy with the red socks who had half of his shirt pulled up for like the remainder of the video. HAHAHAH!! But at least they caught my POWER first-touch. :p
But as you all can see... I was like.. heck care ar. HAHHAH! Walk here walk there. LOL! Too bad they nvr video when i sprinting. I wanna see sia!! See how bloody hell slow i am! HAHHA! But just wait till i start my sprinting training again.:)
Oh. We lost 4:2. But the good thing is... Roys and i nvr pay. HAHHHAHAH!!!! We pretend to shoot here shoot there after the game, then they all forget we nvr pay. HHAHAA! NICE ONE BROTHER!
K i shall start my rotting routine now.
Anyway, when i reached the match place right.. I wasn't like motivated for the match or anything. So... Solution... U know... Which... put me STRAIGHT into adrenaline. Crazy shit. My heart was beating like mad, just ask Royston TWIN BROTHER! He felt my pulse. HAHA!
I got subbed in, in the second half of the match. Still not wanting to run or anything. HAHA!
Apparently the team took a video. So here it is.:)
My MOST relac game EVER. HAAH!!
I'm the guy with the red socks who had half of his shirt pulled up for like the remainder of the video. HAHAHAH!! But at least they caught my POWER first-touch. :p
But as you all can see... I was like.. heck care ar. HAHHAH! Walk here walk there. LOL! Too bad they nvr video when i sprinting. I wanna see sia!! See how bloody hell slow i am! HAHHA! But just wait till i start my sprinting training again.:)
Oh. We lost 4:2. But the good thing is... Roys and i nvr pay. HAHHHAHAH!!!! We pretend to shoot here shoot there after the game, then they all forget we nvr pay. HHAHAA! NICE ONE BROTHER!
K i shall start my rotting routine now.
Friday, November 13, 2009
This is what you get when u are born between June 21 to July 22.:)
Cancer Astrology June 21 - July 22
Cancer Strength Keywords:
- Loyalty
- Dependable
- Caring
- Adaptable
- Responsive
Cancer Weakness Keywords:
- Moody
- Clingy
- Self-pitying
- Oversensitive
- Self-absorbed
Cancer and Independence:
Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family.
Cancer and Friendship:
Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted.
Cancer and Business:
Once cancer resolved their emotional issues such as shyness and insecurity, the powerful character will shine though, there is practically nothing they can't do. They have incredible perseverance and will stand up for what they believe in. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. They are excellent business people and investors because of their intuitive and psychic ability and their creative forward thinking mind, they are able to predict future trends. They attract wealth very well and know where to invest. Money and financial well being is very important to Cancer and this can help their drive in business. They need financial security and if they allow themselves to properly focus their energy and do not allow their emotions to over take them, they are more then capable of obtaining their financial goals and being incredibly successful business people.
Cancer Temperament:
They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, they can be irritable and cranky. They have an uneasy, delicate temperament. The contradictory nature of Cancer gives their temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums. They are easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time when they get hurt.
Cancer Deep Inside:
It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people. This causes built up anger and resentment inside, the contradictory nature really takes a toll on them and they can have a negative outlook on life, thinking that life is just too hard and miserable. This is unfortunate because when good experiences are to be had, they are skeptical of people and their surroundings and they experience tunnel vision due to their depressed outlook and they miss the nice things and happy experiences in life that make it worth living. In addition to lack of trust for people, Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this is other reason why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. Cancer lives in the past. They hold past events close to them and often dwell on the past. They have to learn to let go and live in the present instead of spending their time being sick with nostalgia. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. Cancer is constantly feeling, feelings and emotions are hallmarks of this sign and this is the root of their problems, human beings are not as evolved in the emotional area and this is where cancer gets the brunt of their problems. They are the ones who have to cope with their strong feelings more so then any other sign. Once properly harnessed, there is nothing that is this powerful astrology sign can not accomplish. Harmony is very important to Cancer, it keeps them happy. Conflict of any kind causes great distress. Deep inside, Cancer is a very powerful sign, they have the ability to stand up for what they think is right and they have lots of perseverance and can be fine on their own provided they don't let their emotions get the better of them and have the stability they need. They are not fond of change but they have the ability to do what needs to be done, they are not pushovers or lazy people.
Cancer in a Nutshell:
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake.
Cancer Strength Keywords:
- Loyalty
- Dependable
- Caring
- Adaptable
- Responsive
Cancer Weakness Keywords:
- Moody
- Clingy
- Self-pitying
- Oversensitive
- Self-absorbed
Cancer and Independence:
Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family.
Cancer and Friendship:
Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted.
Cancer and Business:
Once cancer resolved their emotional issues such as shyness and insecurity, the powerful character will shine though, there is practically nothing they can't do. They have incredible perseverance and will stand up for what they believe in. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. They are excellent business people and investors because of their intuitive and psychic ability and their creative forward thinking mind, they are able to predict future trends. They attract wealth very well and know where to invest. Money and financial well being is very important to Cancer and this can help their drive in business. They need financial security and if they allow themselves to properly focus their energy and do not allow their emotions to over take them, they are more then capable of obtaining their financial goals and being incredibly successful business people.
Cancer Temperament:
They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, they can be irritable and cranky. They have an uneasy, delicate temperament. The contradictory nature of Cancer gives their temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums. They are easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time when they get hurt.
Cancer Deep Inside:
It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people. This causes built up anger and resentment inside, the contradictory nature really takes a toll on them and they can have a negative outlook on life, thinking that life is just too hard and miserable. This is unfortunate because when good experiences are to be had, they are skeptical of people and their surroundings and they experience tunnel vision due to their depressed outlook and they miss the nice things and happy experiences in life that make it worth living. In addition to lack of trust for people, Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this is other reason why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. Cancer lives in the past. They hold past events close to them and often dwell on the past. They have to learn to let go and live in the present instead of spending their time being sick with nostalgia. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. Cancer is constantly feeling, feelings and emotions are hallmarks of this sign and this is the root of their problems, human beings are not as evolved in the emotional area and this is where cancer gets the brunt of their problems. They are the ones who have to cope with their strong feelings more so then any other sign. Once properly harnessed, there is nothing that is this powerful astrology sign can not accomplish. Harmony is very important to Cancer, it keeps them happy. Conflict of any kind causes great distress. Deep inside, Cancer is a very powerful sign, they have the ability to stand up for what they think is right and they have lots of perseverance and can be fine on their own provided they don't let their emotions get the better of them and have the stability they need. They are not fond of change but they have the ability to do what needs to be done, they are not pushovers or lazy people.
Cancer in a Nutshell:
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake.
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