Mehhhh......
Today going to enter tekong.
Mehhh.....
HAHAHAH!!!
Am i totally ready? Most probably not. But... I'm ready to just go with the flow.
Gonna get some macs for freaking early breakfast!!!
Hopefully i get to see what really goes on behind the scenes today, so i can prepare myself for this coming [MAYBE fucked up] 2 weeks.
READY TO GO.
CIAO!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Saturday, November 5, 2011
How things have changed... Well i think most of it.
Last post was dated on Apr 7 2011. 7 months ago. Well it would be if this post were up two days later. But that is not the point.
Many things have changed. And i would like to update things. Not for people the online, [well obviously you all have some part in it, since i'm posting it online. -.-"]but mainly for myself, to "SEE" how things have progressed [supposedly] to this day.
Number one. MAJOR change. I found out i was a father, on MOTHER'S DAY. [HA! Well don't know why i find that funny, but i do.] Well for my [NOW officially big] baby, it was not a surprise that she was expecting, not that i was expecting it either. Decisions were made, first irreversible ones, then came the down-to-earth and reasonable ones.
And on the 20th of October 2011, my wife / big baby, became official parents. Saying hello to our little muffin:) Mr Gian Yuu Jie. Funny how we couldn't find a suitable english name to go with his mandarin one. Nonetheless we definitely love his puny punk ass. HAHA!
Regrets? Nope. Life Changing? Do you even need to ask?
Number two. National Service... Ah.. The dreaded journey for most Singaporean boys. Boys because, we have not experienced a part of life that i hope never becomes reality. I would have expected or even dared bet that i would dread the day i would be enlisted.
Yet. Today i find myself [although not exactly eager] waiting for that day to come, almost as though i'm wishing for those days to arrive sooner. I'm like 90% prepared for enlistement. Minus the cheap but durable watch, some transparent ear studs, and still contemplating whether i should get myself a pair of spare spectacles.
So what does this say?
I'm thinking... I want to run away.
From what? Fears and troubles of bringing a kid up? KA-PESSHHHH! Nonsense. Ever-ready to bring this little punk to his fullest potential.
Reason for not being scared? Simply because he's a [although not exact, that would be scary/freaky] replica of me. Thinking about what good he can do for himself in the future ain't my concern. It's the bad that i'm looking out for, been there done that. [HA didn't expect that i could use this term literally so soon] I can handle the future.:)
Keeping on track now, i would say i'm running away from facing my dad. Yea. Dad. Something that can be the simplest yet most confusing task any male can take on. What makes a dad? Today, i'm unable to give a complete answer.
However, i know there isn't just ONE single way to be a father.
So....
1. Baby Surprise.
2. NS.
3. Conflicting Views on that of a Father's responsibilities.
Ok that makes only 3 changes.
Pretty interesting for just 3 things, i'll update this again when i'm ready to do so.
Many things have changed. And i would like to update things. Not for people the online, [well obviously you all have some part in it, since i'm posting it online. -.-"]but mainly for myself, to "SEE" how things have progressed [supposedly] to this day.
Number one. MAJOR change. I found out i was a father, on MOTHER'S DAY. [HA! Well don't know why i find that funny, but i do.] Well for my [NOW officially big] baby, it was not a surprise that she was expecting, not that i was expecting it either. Decisions were made, first irreversible ones, then came the down-to-earth and reasonable ones.
And on the 20th of October 2011, my wife / big baby, became official parents. Saying hello to our little muffin:) Mr Gian Yuu Jie. Funny how we couldn't find a suitable english name to go with his mandarin one. Nonetheless we definitely love his puny punk ass. HAHA!
Regrets? Nope. Life Changing? Do you even need to ask?
Number two. National Service... Ah.. The dreaded journey for most Singaporean boys. Boys because, we have not experienced a part of life that i hope never becomes reality. I would have expected or even dared bet that i would dread the day i would be enlisted.
Yet. Today i find myself [although not exactly eager] waiting for that day to come, almost as though i'm wishing for those days to arrive sooner. I'm like 90% prepared for enlistement. Minus the cheap but durable watch, some transparent ear studs, and still contemplating whether i should get myself a pair of spare spectacles.
So what does this say?
I'm thinking... I want to run away.
From what? Fears and troubles of bringing a kid up? KA-PESSHHHH! Nonsense. Ever-ready to bring this little punk to his fullest potential.
Reason for not being scared? Simply because he's a [although not exact, that would be scary/freaky] replica of me. Thinking about what good he can do for himself in the future ain't my concern. It's the bad that i'm looking out for, been there done that. [HA didn't expect that i could use this term literally so soon] I can handle the future.:)
Keeping on track now, i would say i'm running away from facing my dad. Yea. Dad. Something that can be the simplest yet most confusing task any male can take on. What makes a dad? Today, i'm unable to give a complete answer.
However, i know there isn't just ONE single way to be a father.
So....
1. Baby Surprise.
2. NS.
3. Conflicting Views on that of a Father's responsibilities.
Ok that makes only 3 changes.
Pretty interesting for just 3 things, i'll update this again when i'm ready to do so.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I wonder how much I can disappoint.
I wonder how much I'm worth as of now to you.
I've kept far and distant. And so I tried to go a little closer.
Guess it'll always be too close for comfort.
I promise I will not share my burdens with any of you.
I promise to TRY to be worth SOMETHING.
I promise you won't have to bother.
I promise you won't have to take the blame.
I promise you I will keep this promise.
And if I break it, I would have been broken, much more than any of you could fix.
I have been, in bubble after bubble. Dreaming like an idiot. No, i still dream, but the bubbles can't contain me as they have used to. I hate this. Never alone, but much more lonely than before. Because I still contain. As I will continue to do so till the day I pass.
Every look you shoot, my heart turns colder, my resolute even stronger, my worth even lesser. Thanks for teaching one thing though. If I dared to care, I should tell myself that i'm just giving myself an equal chance to be hurt.
I wonder how much I'm worth as of now to you.
I've kept far and distant. And so I tried to go a little closer.
Guess it'll always be too close for comfort.
I promise I will not share my burdens with any of you.
I promise to TRY to be worth SOMETHING.
I promise you won't have to bother.
I promise you won't have to take the blame.
I promise you I will keep this promise.
And if I break it, I would have been broken, much more than any of you could fix.
I have been, in bubble after bubble. Dreaming like an idiot. No, i still dream, but the bubbles can't contain me as they have used to. I hate this. Never alone, but much more lonely than before. Because I still contain. As I will continue to do so till the day I pass.
Every look you shoot, my heart turns colder, my resolute even stronger, my worth even lesser. Thanks for teaching one thing though. If I dared to care, I should tell myself that i'm just giving myself an equal chance to be hurt.
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