New Year. New Things. New Experiences.

2010! Arriving later!

Anyway... Am supposed to prepare to leave my house soon to go my cousin's aunt's hse. Bringing my xbox controllers over there to own everyone at HALO 2. :p HAHAHAHAH!!!

Today can be considered as... Really unexpected i think.

This morning. YES THIS MORNING. I drove my dad's car again. According to yh, i've been driving my dad's car everyday since he came back. LOL! This time, we went to west coast, clementi, hillview, jurong east, lakeside, jurong west.

West coast or else is clementi. REALLY SCARED THE SHIT OUTTA ME. STUPID CATS! RAWR!!! Both black cats. I was joking around with brian doing the HEARTBEAT dance under some block while we were looking for an ATM. Then suddenly these two cats like behind us scowl and screech. FWAH! I literally jumped and grabbed my heart. LOL!

Somemore at that moment i was saying "Can you feel my heartbeat?". Then when that incident happened. I DEFINITELY felt my heartbeat. LOL! Beat until pain ar. HAHAHAHA!!!

After that we went to west coast to eat some mac.

Then the usual, slopes and turn-abouts. Oh but this morning's turnabout was damn funny. This taxi uncle, suddenly slow down in front of us, even though i was letting him go because [must give way to right wad] and oso i wan him to go first so that i can turn a few rounds.

SKALY... HE OSO TURN AROUND and AROUND. LOLOLOLOLOLOL! Then brian was like TAILGATE TAILGATE! HAHAHAHA! So we just follow lor. AHAHAHAH! Until another taxi come, then i was like, ok stop playing liao. :p

And FINALLY... THIS MORNING! NOBODY took my dad's car slot! WHOOO!!! HAPPY OR WAD! AHAHHAH!

Ok i should really go to get a shower now.

Will be over at my cousin's aunt's place. Then most prolly off to town.

I-GE-SOU! LETS GO!

3rd time is the charm. I hope. HA!

Totally like... Er... Dunno lah. Not really sian, not really scared, not really not caring. HAHAHA!

Why?

REPEAT OF THE PREVIOUS TIME DAMNIT!

SHA 6998 G!

Die ar.

I think i'm going to have to remember alot of license plates. LOL!

THIS BASTARD TAXI UNCLE! WAH LAO EH!!!! SPOIL THE FUN!

This time, slope-ed twice at the jurong east there. One at 100. Another at 80~90. Went to west coast too. HAHA! LIKE WHOO! OH OH! And we saw police. WAH I TELL U! I SCARED LIKE FUCK THAT ONE! BUT LUCKILY... The police were there for another thing.

An accident. Dunno how to guy drive oso. LOL DRIVE UNTIL CAN HIT TREE. -.-" Either drunk, or car spoil. But u shld know what i'm thinking the reason is.

We saw a sunrise though. At bloody hell 4 plus am. SERIOUS. 4AM. Sunrise! FUCKING COOL ONLY! Then erm... What else ar... Erm... No danger driving today. Kinda tired i guess. HAHA!

OH OH! Yar my dad's car got parked 3 times today. LOL First time the slot was kinda far away. Then this other taxi drove off, so we took his slot. Then after a while, this other car left. THANK HEAVENS his car is so much closer... Then we parked at HIS slot. HAHAHA! So... Hopefully things don't escalate too much later.:)

Anyway...

I dunno why, but... I think my dad already know's i'm driving his car illegally. Just that he dun wan say only. And according to yh, it is because i'm safe.:) Well i always am safe. :p HAHAHA!

Right now... I think i can sleep. Well... I THINK i can sleep.

Still must ask mom to top up money tml... DIE AR DIE AR!

But thanks to experience. Just heck care lah. Actions have consequences yea? Well MOST of them.

Now... Off to bed.. [Hopefully.:)]

NIGHT!

Oh wait. More like MORNING!

Slow down

SLOW

Today is a really slow day. Don't know whether my ciggies have anything to do with it, since i haven't taken any today. Guess being lazy does have its positive sides.

And as expected, i didn't start on PD, i just finished the work that had a deadline today. Last minute worker... AS USUAL. HA...

Relatives are over at here right now, and again, as usual, i'm in my room. HAHA! Forever i guess... Nvm.. At least no one can bother me.:) I can be as lazy as i wanna be.

But on the other hand, i wanna ask...

Why can't people be more spontaneous? Be more... Like.. RANDOM PLZ! It really is getting boring. Nothing to laugh about.

Reading MLIA, is like... Makes me feel.. like... Zzzz... Why doesn't anything like that happen? Even if some of the things happen, the people doing it will get fined or slammed or wadeva shit. Zzzz. Boring Aura rising..

Strangely, my heart is beating very fast. Maybe the helium from ytd? HAHAHA! Now that's something i wanna do... Scolding people in chipmunk voice! HAHAHAH!!! Too bad it's bad for health.. Zzzz... Everything i wanna do seems to be bad for my health. -.-"

Oh well... Nvm. Listen. This is what i'm hearing now.



Oh and i just read something damn WTF. HAHAH!

Today I ordered in Chinese food, so it came with a fortune cookie. My fortune read "When you squeeze an orange, orange juice comes out, because that's what's inside." I'm keeping that fortune for the rest of my life. MLIA.

Sometimes, things are too obvious we forget about it. But for this case, it is more like... They have nothing more to write, so they write random nonsense like this. HAHAH!

Alright... I think i will go to sleep again. Wake up ltr to get a my daily dose.

Suay or Suay? FUCKING SUAY AR!

HAHAHAAH! Just back from a very very exciting adventure.

Now, let me tell u of my journey.:)

So... 2am...

The start of my little adventure...

Took the magical key to the magical vehicle. And of course i took note of how the key was positioned before i took it.:) YH met me at my block, while brian took a short wait at the bus-stop opposite his block.

Today's journey was alittle longer than the first time. Ok MUCH longer. HAHHHAH!!!! Jurong east --> Jurong Point --> Jurong West --> Bukit Batok [Nasi Lemak there] --> Bukit Gombak --> Hillview --> Bukit Batok Central --> THEN FINALLY, home.:)

So the HIGHLIGHTS :

80 at the "hill" after science centre, laughed like crazy there!

100 at some route, forgot where it was.

Some BRILLIANT swerving at the Jurong West area. HHAHHAHA!

3 rounds around the roundabout at Hillview.:) [Brian said he was kinda dizzy. LOL]

MAGNIFICENT U-turn at central around my estate.

THEN COMES...

THE FINALE.

THE BEST FUCKING FINALE EVER.

PARKING THE BLOODY CAR.

GUESS WAD?

No ur supposed to say wad. LOL JUST KIDDING.

BLOODY HELL! SOME OTHER CAR [SJE 2545 L] PARKED AT WHERE MY DAD'S CAR WAS ORIGINALLY AT! *&^%$#@!

Then i'm forced to park at some other spot at the carpark at my house there. Zzzzz...

Now my dad's car is at another spot, which is DAMN obvious the car has been driven. :p But at least i parked the car swee swee-ly. Just that it is at another spot. LOL!

Hope my parents don't notice.

Or else, all of you can prepare for my funeral downstairs of my block. 221. LOLOLOLOLOL!

K i shall go sleep, and try to initate my survival plan later.

HAHAHAHA! WISH ME LUCK!

RULE-BREAKER

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! PARENTS ARE IN THE ROOM LIAO. LIGHTS ARE OFF.

MUSIC IS BLASTING IN MY ROOM.

Yang Han jsut msned me. We both know what is going on. And i'm getting FUCKING HIGH over it.:)

This is better than any alcohol and music in the world.

I ain't gonna post about anything today.

YET.

Lazy to right now.

Now is to wait till i hear the MAGIC sound.

THE CALLING....

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! WAH FUCK! I GETTING CRAZY!!!

This would be one of the few times i'm happy to hear the sound of a snore.:)

NIAM NIAM NIAM NIAM!!! A CHANCE TO BREAK RULES... *SPRINTS AROUND THE HOUSE*

AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Rest?

I don't think so....

HEH HEH HEH HEH...

Waiting for my parents to go to dreamland...

Then OLEWA will go to paradise. MWAHAHHAAHAHAHA!!!!

Today...

Really ar...

I finished one pack in a day. Zzzzz... Guess i'm going to die soon huh? Oh too bad...

Shopping Shopping...

Today i went shopping with YH and Angie, before they left for their work.

Today's target was to get clothes or attire appropriate for me to dance SORRY SORRY for my tuition centre's dinner and dance.:)

First thing was that... I didn't have any preference on what to wear.

Second thing was that... I didn't know where to buy the clothes.

Third thing was that... I was quite shy to try on the new attires, cause i was not wearing appropriate pants or anything.

ANYWAYS....

We went to bugis to buy the items. We went to bugis street first, and... DIDN'T buy anything. HAHAHAHAH! Although we saw some interesting shirts and vests.:)

Next we went to Iluma, where i FINALLY got a shirt and vest.:) With much help from the two. At this point, Angie was like close to giving in to temptation to buy stuff for herself. LOL! And yh and i weren't exactly helping. :p

We then went to Manhattan Fish Market to makan. Food there was nice.:) Big in their serving too!!! The fish... FUYOH!!! BIG LIKE WAD ONLY! I LIKE...

Angie then left for work, she was running late. Well... Can't say it's not my fault. So... Apologies to both YH and Angie, i caused them both to be late today. I owe u both then?

After angie left for work, YH brought me to Marina Square. What was there, i tell u... I can ji tao take all my money and just throw it at the cashier and run out with bags of stuff. LOL!

I'm lazy to elaborate on the stuff. Later my heart really %$#@!.... YH! U WAIT! I GET MONEY FIRST! THEN I BUY TILL I SHIOK! HAHAHAHAHAH! I REALLY REALLY WANT THOSE SHOES! JUST WAIT! TML! OR LATER! I MAYBE GO BUY IT DAMNIT! WHOOO!!! $129.00 SIA!!!

Then i left for home.:) And nua till now.

I wanna thank everybody for the christmas wishes.:) I hope u all get ur christmas wishes!

Right now, I just wanna go downstairs and get something to eat. Cya guys.

Erm...

Merry Christmas. AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR [soon to come.:)]

Angie's Recommendation

Ok, now to post about my BREAKFAST today.

I hadn't had a decent meal since ytd afternoon. So i was kinda hungry. Scavanging my house for food, all i found were biscuits and maggie mee. I was kinda sick of maggie mee, so.... Biscuits lor... Then angie gave me a suggestion.

To eat a slice of bread with milo powder on it. [Her childhood favourite.] LOL! So i tried it this morning, [or AFTERNOON really. :p]

K here is PROOF, that i did make your "CHILDHOOD DELICACY" and eat it.

Damn... The internet is like really WTF now... Zzzzz




Milo on bread. I used the 3 in 1 type, cause the content in the original can all became like a rock like that. Cnt break it apart. Zzzz



And if ur wondering why the bread is brown? There it is. STARING RIGHT AT YOUR FACES. HAHAHAHHA!!!

Overall... Not bad lah... But i prefer just eating the powder by itself. Like what i'm doing right now. LOLOLOLOL!

ARGHHHH!!! I NEED ICE-CREAM!! NOW! BEN AND JERRY'S!!!! SMORES SMORES SMORES!!!!

Damn... Nvm i shall get more milo powder, in an attempt to curb my ice-cream needs now.

Inking... Inking...

Damn... Ink. Seems like the shit. Ha!

Watching London Ink now. When i'm supposed to be bloody hell sleeping.

This particular woman took an entire phoenix on her back, and she finished it in one go. Seriously power. She was crying when they were doing it halfway through, but she pulled through and got some fabulous art on her entire back.

ENTIRE BACK.

DAMN. I oso wan. But must wait till after army.

Actually i'm thinking that there is a very high chance i can't get it.

For one, everything that i said i would do, i never fulfil. Yet for everything i said i WON'T do, i do.

Time for a change?

Yes i think it's time for a change.

I need to go to the gym.
I need to go find a new hobby.
I need to go and find myself.
I need.
To.
I dunno.
I just need to do something.

Life is getting abit dull.

MONEY MONEY MONEY. STUDY STUDY STUDY.

BORING.

I wanna go to London.
I wanna go to LA.
I wanna go to Miami.
I wanna go to Japan.
I wanna go to France.
I wanna go to a new place.

I.
Wanna.
Bring.
My.
Nonsense.
TO ANOTHER LEVEL.

Ooooh... Man Vs Food....

Now, I WANNA TRY EVERY SINGLE DELICACY!

Travel & Living.
Thirst for the NEW.
A different way, to satisfy the senses.
To see with new EYES.

I just realised.

Everything that i have done.
Broke the rules that were set.
Guess i just LOVE breaking rules.

Anymore rules to break that give me a long lasting sense of satisfaction?

Driving my dad's car gave me a cheap thrill ride. Lasted pretty long yea.

I'm looking for something else next...

Maybe.. JUST maybe... Something to do with spraying. Not sure yet.

Holidays at the start

Bring me to this place.

Where i don't know nobody inside.

While help waits outside when i'm done.




Ok, anyways... These few days have been quite.... Erm... The only word i can think of is.. NUA. LOL! For the past few days, yh and angie have been staying over at my house. Which led to some stupid events, damn funny! My maid got shocked when she saw angie in the morning.

Still scold me naughty naughty! WAH LAO! I GOOD BOY HOR!


OH yar! I'm suppose to call yh now. Wah lazy ar...

I think i finish my parent's newspaper articles first. NABEI!!!! Got 200 over articles... Zzzzz... Nvm, it will be gone in a flash.

For today's plans... I'm gonna meet Yang Han and Angie to get me some clothes! Not really sure about the shoes, cause i really bo lui liao. Angie is ready for the gloves though, with her glue gun and all. LOL! Hopefully i have enough money later. Or else... I'm going back to my shell until my parents come back.:)

On another hand, My family is still in shanghai right now, and my older but still younger than me sis has not been feeling well these past few days. Mommy says everyone is getting quite tired. Oh well... Hope they all enjoy the remainder of the days. Wah since when i so good ar? LOL!

Guess, absence does really makes the heart grow fonder. 26 december!!! Partly happy oso because no need do news articles liao. :p

K have to be a good, hardworking and filial son. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! :p

Ask for more. Remember the Word to say.

The sky was clear, the weather seemed perfect. As they admired the scenery, something stopped them in their tracks. It was huge. The doors towered over them. The doors were made of wood. Placed directly in the middle was a heart. Lines were carved into the door. One line made a special impression. It was in the middle of the door. It stretched all the way from the top to the bottom. What was strange was, that the line wasn't carved on the inside of the heart.

Taking not much notice, everyone placed their hands on the door and pushed. The door wouldn't budge. They tried again. The door still couldn't be moved. They tried for what seemed like a long time.

After what seemed like eternity. Everyone gave up. They laid down on the ground, the ground was strange. It didn't feel hard, nor was it soft. It was just, comfortable. You could lie there for the rest of your life.

Time passed, and they all fell asleep. They were alone, or so they thought. A pair of eyes had been following them from the start. This mysterious figure thought to itself, "Maybe just one, it would be better i guess."

It descended from where it had been before, and whispered into the ears of a particular person, "Trust. Try asking to be let in, it may just work.".

It was like a lightning bolt, the guy sprung up from the ground. He was unsure of what had happened, he had felt a very intense pressure on his chest. He couldn't open his eyes, nor could he scream. Aside from the burning question on how an unknown person knew his name, all he had in his mind was the word, please.

He then proceeded to the door, placing each hand firmly on the door. Mustering all the strength he could, he pushed. The door could not be moved. "I must be crazy" he thought. "We tried as a group and failed, what makes me think i can even shift this door the tiniest bit?".

As he started to turn, he heard clicks. It seemed like the sound came from behind the door. Taking no chances, he spun right back towards the door and starting pushing at the door. Still no change. "Weird..." Trust thought, he was absolutely sure that he heard loud clicks from behind the door.

"I think i should wait for everyone else to wake up, before we try anything new." he said to himself. His mind started to wander as he faced his back towards the door. All of a sudden, he heard the sound of weeping. It sounded like a little kid.

He immediately got up and scanned the area. It was a little kid, crying profusely, running in his direction. He couldn't think of anything else, he crouched down as the kid came closer. The kid was carrying chains, the sound of the metal clashing against each other was almost as loud as the kid's sorrow.

His arms were open. An invitation for the kid to show him that he was there for the little fellow, the kid gladly took the offer. As he picked the kid up from the ground, he realised that the kid wasn't as heavy as he had anticipated, he was almost weightless, considering the fact he has those massive metal chains with him.

"Please! Please! Please!", those were the only words coming out of the kid's mouth. Trust was unsure of what the kid's request was. All the kid did was scream the word please. But as he try to comprehend further, it struck him. The kid was staring towards the door and screaming please. What was the kid trying to say? Was the kid trying to steer him and his friend aways from the door? Or was he encouraging them to open it?

Trust couldn't take it any longer, he put the kid down and scrambled across towards his friends. "HEY GUYS! HELP!", he hollered. Everyone else was startled, picking themselves up, everyone was quiet, giving him stares of death. "What are you guys staring at me so angrily for? There's a kid in distress and and and...", He couldn't finish his sentence. The kid was gone. Vanished into thin air.

All he heard, was the same metallic clash at the door. "Please guys follow me, i think i can open this door, the kid is over at the other side. He was crying his heart out. Please. Just trust me." Trust blurted.

Immediately after Trust finished his sentence, another voice broke the silence. "This better work, Trust. Oh well, your name already suggests it anyway." "Thanks Faith, it will, it will."

Trust placed his hands firmly on the doors once again, but this time, it was different. The air turned stagnant, it was very still. Everything was very quiet, as though it were a signal for something important to be said.

Trust opened his mouth. A gush of wind smashed on their faces, it was like facing a tsunami head on, only that it was made of wind instead of water.

If the scenery before was breath-taking, they would all have died at that instance. A garden greeted them, it was inviting. There was a tea table right in the middle of the landscape.

What was more interesting than every other thing, was the fact that there was a person dressed extremely well. He could be the epitomy of the phrase, dressed to impress. Sitting there, pouring what seemed like tea into the teacups placed at the tea table.

Trust sprang right into action, sprinting towards this guy. When he reached the table, he was interrupted even before he could start his sentence. "It is quite rude not to introduce yourself before you start a conversation. Wait, were you going to start? Or were you going to question me?", this guy questioned.

He couldn't waste anymore time. "Hi, my name is trust. I was looking for a kid, he was carrying chains with him and crying very badly, have you seen him?" trust said with his most polite voice. "Now that is better, Hi Trust. No i have not seen such a kid, it is quite impossible for a kid to be carrying chains and running around don't you think?" he replied.

Relax, Take It Easy.

I got left hanging, because i didn't hear anything nice.

Maybe it was because i was selfish.

Oh well.

I'm selfish.

Because it is all about me.

The words i said, were too late.

Maybe i should have said it first.

Before i put on my selfish mask.

As i'm left here hanging.

I'm thinking...

Should someone get me down?

If anyone lets me get down.

Do you wonder what will happen?

I already know.

So i don't wanna be let down.

Cheering me up.

Pulls me higher.

And then i'll be left hanging even higher than before.

And when i look down.

I'll feel even more terrified and lost.

That is what makes me...

I don't know.

Do any of you know?

Music affects my mood very seriously. Therefore, my emotions are shown through my music. My choice of music shows my mood. Get it? You don't have too, although i am pretty certain it is very easy to understand.

There is a piano right across.

In the other room.

If i had continued learning.

You would hear sorrow and rhythm having a duet together every night.

If i could spilt myself into each individual mood.

I would choose to be the one who portrays sorrow.

So i can cry my heart out every night.

Tug at my heart.

Make sure i'm still human.

After that, make sure i'm still alive.

There is a very deep ocean of thoughts and regrets inside of me.

I could drown myself within myself.

And none of you would hear me calling.

None of you would see me calling.

None of you can smell the stench from my rot.

This room is filled with me.

This is my graveyard.

This is also my sanctuary.

This is my inner shell.

Can you see the barriers?

You told me to open up myself.

One has to be close to me.

That is barrier number 1.

One has to know where my house is.

That is barrier number 2.

One has to be let into my house.

That is barrier number 3.

One has to be let into my room.

That is barrier number 4.

One has to understand that i need to be comfortable.

That is barrier number 5.

One has to know that even when i'm comfortable i may not talk.

That is barrier number 6.

One has to know when to talk.

That is barrier number 7.

One has to know when to listen.

That is barrier number 8.

One has to be someone i'm comfortable be in the first place.

That is barrier number 9.

One has to be someone whom i feel i can trust.

That is barrier number 10.

One must understand me.

That barrier.

Is.

Unbreakable.

Full stories are never known with me.

Even if you have broken all these barriers.

These are the physical barriers.

Can u find me?

Within these vines and spikes and traps?

You will not be saving me.

You will not be helping me.

Because.

You are bringing me outside.

Where i'm powerless.

Where i crumble even easily than when i'm inside.

Where cuts turn into scars.

Where burns scar.

Where words tear away at a vulnerable kid.

Where emotions are swung around wildly.

In the end.

It's clear.

I'm terrified.

I'm trying my best.

I'm ok.

I'm ok.

I'm ok.

I'm gonna relax.

I'm gonna take it easy.

When i let rivers flow.

It is always replenished.

For every single drop.

I regret having let it drip away for others to see.

Introvert.

Cancer.

Selfish.

Complicated.

All of them.

I try to hide.

My armour is always ready.

Recently.

I thought that i was ready to drop it all.

I guess i just let the chains loose.

Yet i got torn apart.

As i'm gathering pieces.

Can someone watch my back?

Can someone help me gather the pieces back?

Can someone help me put the pieces in place together?

Where to go from here?

Kinda bored now.

Watched enough of television.

Almost had enough of watching my lappy for the whole day already.

Strangely.

I do not want to play soccer at the moment.

I bet the past me would be like... ?!?!?! At the current me now. HAHAHA!

Ultimate contradiction Mr Gian Kin Toh.:)

What's left huh?

Let me tell u all the several "oaths" i made last time.

1.)NEVER smoke.
2.)NEVER dye my hair.
3.)NEVER go clubbing.
4.)NEVER try relationships.
5.)In the case of the breaking of OATH 4, NEVER take a westwoodian.

Now.

No prize for getting the correct answers.

I have not done 4 and 5. Not bad. HAHAHA! At least i didn't break ALL of my oaths.:)

If i could see my previous self and have a talk.

We wouldn't even talk for 5 secs.

I would just need to take out my pack, and *poof*, someone's gone.

Or else, i would get a bloody hell tight slap.

Either from my parents or myself. HAHA. Seems like wtf huh?



Here's the problem for today.

It is exactly 5:14pm, i want to go out. But i do not want to play soccer, i do not want to see people. I do not want to go and have the same situation. I'm kinda hungry i guess. I think if i do go down, i will buy some food for myself.

Actually, i don't really want to go down. I wanna stay at home. But. Firstly, if i don't go out soon, my parents will drag me to the airport. Not that i don't feel like seeing my cousins or relatives. OK FUCK. I'M LYING. I don't wanna see anyone now. Fuck off thks.:) Unless ur gonna sit beside me and keep quiet. Silence is golden.

Another thing. My "babies" are not here. FUCK THIS SHIT. I'm gonna get addicted. I'm already naming them. I can't name another person, because i will grow on them. And that is stupid, because everything can be ruined if i grow on any one in my group of friends. The only thing i can name and grow on, is not even here. It can't even exist.

I'm sorry. It's not a want. It's a fucking need.:) My studies are ok, they will always be ok. JUST ok. Everything else might be a fucking problem.:) Too bad you two can't read this. Because i'm not gonna let ya.



Let me say another thing.

My "mother" and "wife", mel and hannah respectively, wanna crash my class. Monday huh? Well, i wanna say sure.:) But things make me choose otherwise. My class is like shit, a few of my classmates will piss me off for sure. And most importantly, i won't be in class most of the time. I'll be outside having a dose of death.:) So... I guess u all can just meet me after school or something? WHICH AGAIN, is sort of impossible, because i ain't free. Cause i always make myself busy.:) With unneeded stuff, to get out of unneeded situations.:)

I'm off for a shower. Then i'll see what i wanna do.

Do i seem like i'm calling for help?

Strange. Utterly Strange. Myself that is.

These few days, i've been having very very excessive mood swings [damn this makes me sound like a girl]. But my moods tend to hover over either the irritated or disappointed side.

Irritated by certain people, certain things, certain situations. Things that are happening. Things that AREN'T happening. Things that are going to happen. Things that i THINK are going to happen.

Anyway.

What is even more weird?

My parents.

I don't know what i should feel over this. I was actually extremely confused over that incident. Until i sort of figured out the answer why.

K picture this.

U've just reached home.

U go to ur room.

On ur lappy.

And u are minding ur own business.

Everything seems fine.

SUDDENLY...

There's a knock on ur door.

Ur mom comes in.

She says.

Can u cope with ur studies?

U sure u can cope?

How are ur tests?

U sure ur studies ok?

No stress?

Then she just stands there.

Oh that is just the FIRST part.

Here's the next part.

Ur mom then leaves.

She closes the door.

Not even 10 seconds later.

U hear another knock.

Ur DAD comes in.

And he says...

Can u handle school anot?

U know we recieved the letter right?

Try not to skip again.

Can u cope anot?

Ok ar...

Mommy is sick.

Don't break her heart.

Don't BREAK her heart.

I SWEAR.

When he finished that line.

This song came up in my head. I SWEAR.



At first. I was like... WTF?!

As i was already WTF-ing, my dad suddenly came back into the room.

And said.

Remember, we will always support u.

I was like..

I nvr say u all nvr support me wad.

At the same time.

I was like..

Wait. Support me?

Support me for?

I ain't doing no shit now.



But i got my enlightenment abit later.

Cause i realised that they thought that i skipped school because i couldn't cope with it. Honestly, we all know why we skip school. And we can't tell our parents EVERYTHING can we?


K nvm i dunno wad i'm supposed to be doing now. Oh yar posters. Posters. Posters..

Another one of those days.

Saturday.

Was suppose to work for daniel and help him give out flyers.

But this stupid swollen leg.

And this stupid lazy mindset of mine.

Put me straight face-first into boredom.

Today feels like a Sunday.

Stupid.

Today, i hadn't my daily dose of death. Which sucked. Cause i felt like crying just now.

Stupid.

EVERYTHING IS STUPID.

I RATHER BE ANGRY THAN SAD.

I RATHER BE DRUNK THAN WASTED.

I RATHER BE PHYSICAL THAN VERBAL.

I need a dog. Badly.

No.

I need a companion. Desperately.

I don't want something to be thrown at me to satisfy me.

I want to be GIVEN, what i NEED.

Seriously.

I'm gonna be treating almost everyone this way soon.

Slowly but surely.

I know some of you can see it.

For those that can't?

Good Luck.:)

My daily Death Dose is here.

Just that piece.

A cuddle.
A snuggle.
A pat on the head.
A hug.
A smile that i will remember.
A place.
A person.

A Fantasy will always stay as A Fantasy.

One fantasizes.
But one will realise, even though one may feel good when they fantasize.
In reality it will never happen.
That is when you get a reality check.
Realise that you just dug an even deeper hole to drop yourself in.

How does one get themself out?
Don't ask me.
I'm just digging another hole for myself to drop in.
What goes up, MUST come down.

One day if the sky falls down.
I hope i won't be there to see it.

I want to wake up and see a text message from you and smile.
I want to always anticipate the next time i'm going to see you.
I want to dive into your arms.
I want you to be my other shell.
Where i can share everything.
Where we can share our secrets.
Where we can be alone.

I want you to give me a hug randomly.
I want you to go out with me.
I want to whisper into your ears.
I want to do absolute nonsense with you.
I want you to make me laugh till i cannot do so.
I want to crack jokes to make you laugh till you drop.
I want to be smittened by you and everything you do.

I want to share a bed with you.
Where i can snuggle and cuddle with you till the next day.
And wish that time stopped forever.
I want to smell your hair.
I want you to ruffle my hair till it gets all messy.
I want to be teased by you.
I want to tell EVERYONE about you.
I want to be with you.
For the rest of my life.

Whoever you are.
I'm lost.
My heart is fragile.
I don't trust so much anymore.
I don't talk much anymore.
I don't care much anymore.
I can't have the things that i want.
Can you pick me up?
And bring me on an adventure.
Because i'm in need of one desperately.

Definitely.

YOU know something is not right...
YOU can see that i ain't answering...

Yet.
YOU do not ask anything of it.

I bet YOU can hear that click.
I bet YOU can smell the stench.
I bet YOU can see my behaviour.
I bet YOU know why i took the keys.
I bet YOU know why i kept the keys.
I bet YOU know why i locked the door.
I bet YOU know why i left the house.
I bet YOU think that it is about the dog.

I.
Have.
Just.
Won.
ALL.
OF.
THE.
BETS.

Think.

My Window Grill's open.
My Door is locked.
My Room Keys are in the room.
My Window Grill Keys are in my room.
My Chair is facing the outside of the room.
My Entire Body Is facing the open.

Quick.
Think Fast.
What do you think i'm going to do?

Your Time is running out.
It's Out.

Little Chocolate... Mini Me.

TODAY.
I GOT BACK HOME.
I TOLD MY MOM ABOUT SCHOOL.

THEN...

I CHANGED THE TOPIC TO DOGGY!
I DEBATED WITH HER FOR 1 HOUR!

DAMN!
SHE JUST DIE DIE DON'T WANT ME TO GET A DOG!
EVEN WHEN I SAID IT'S LIKE SMALL!

DAMN!
SHE SAY SHE SCARED!
BUT I'M LIKE, MY FREN THE MOM OSO SCARED AT FIRST, NOW OSO NOTHING!

DAMN!
OMFG!
SHE GAVE ME A CHALLENGE!

SHE SAID.
THERE ARE 6 MEMBERS IN THIS HOUSE.
GET 4 PEOPLE TO GIVE YOU CONSENT.
THEN WE SEE HOW.

WAH LAO!
STILL SEE HOW AR!
$^!%@#$^%#!!

RAWR!
AND!
MY YOUNGER SIBILINGS ARE NOT COUNTED!
THE HONG KAI AND THE JING FANG!
WAH LAO!

MY MOM IS QUITE CERTAIN THAT MY OTHER SIS DON'T WANT.
AND MY MOM IS LIKE DAMN CONFIDENT MY DAD OSO DON'T WANT.

GUESS WHAT?
ME TOO!
T.T

HOW AR?! HELP ME PLZ! I WAN MY CHOCOLATE - POMERANIAN!

Sentosa!

Woke up at like 9 plus in the morning? Yang Han gave me a morning call, to which i said... Eh meet at 1030 ar, then i go back sleep. LOL! Sleep until like 1015 then willing to get out of bed.

I was REALLY REALLY sleepy, cause i slept at 4 plus am. [YAR LAH YH I KNOW U SLEEP AT 5 LAH HOR. HOR HOR HOR FUN AR HOR! AHAHAHAH!!!] Went out with Brian and Yang Han to nua around my estate. Oh shit, i forgot what we did sia. Short-term Memory loss liao. DIE.

Aiya. Nvm. Who cares.

ANYWAY.... I just remembered that Angie called YH and asked the both of us to go sentosa today. Then i was like anything lor, since Sunday oso nothing much one. Except must go back home to have dinner.:)

So i met YH first under his block, then we proceeded to go VIVO and get some food and some MOUSSE [if i rmb correctly, this is how jing jing tell me how to spell one.].

We had our lunch and our [WHAT REAL MEN DO] break, while waiting for Angie. When she finally came, it was like... 12 plus? Not sure, didn't really care though. HAHHAAH! As long as we can go sentosa i happy liao!

WAH KA LI GONG!
I TELL U!
WO GEN NI SHOU!
AKU CAKAP!
YUAN DE BU YAO NA!

THE WEATHER WAS FRIGGING HOT! HOT HOT HOT! DAMN HOT AR! I wearing my muay thai singlet oso feel DAMN HOT! The weather was too hot man... Seriously.

The idea for THEM, was to Sun-Tan and play basketball. MY idea, was to just do something without burning myself to a crisp and getting served for people to eat. HAHAHA!

I kept complaining the whole way, saying WAH NO SUN! DON'T COME OUT! HOT AR HOT AR! HAHAH! Then Angie was like NO NO! Cause she was pretty hellbent on getting tanned today. In the end, she was un-satisfied with the results. LOL cause we all darker than her, which is like... We originally quite dark already, and she's quite fair, so comparing our hands is like DEFINITELY gonna demoralise her only! AHHAHHA! Oh well. Too bad only got us dark skinned people for her to compare.

K wait. I'm kinda sleepy now, i go wash my legs then i think i go sleep awhile. Hopefully dinner isn't ready so fast.

WAH LAO! I JUST FINISHED WASHING MY LEGS. AND GUESS WHAT?!

THE FOOD IS ON THE TABLE ALREADY! WAH LAO!!! I WAN SLEEP ABIT FIRST SIA!

*PAUSE*

BACK FROM DINNER!

Ok as i was saying... wait ar i read first. LOL!

Yar. Angie was unsatisfied at the end, but i'm PRETTY SURE, she was having some fun in the process.:) She and i did our MINI MISSION. [Take YH's HP and CAMWHORE!] HAHAHAHAA! Damn stupid!

YH was playing bb with some other guys, so... seeing him distracted... Angie suddenly said, EH! Faster take photo with his phone! We've messed with his hp before. HAHAH! The other time at the pub. We took a picture of ourselves and put as wallpaper. LOL!

We didn't put as wallpaper, partly because no time, and partly because, Angie tot that the photo was DAMN SCANDALOUS HAHAHAH! I agree too! Cause in the photo, the two of us like nvr wear clothes like that! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!

We had to leave a little later because YH had work, so we took a picture before we left.:)

Here it is.:)



HAHAHA! My hair like at photoshoot like that! FLY ALL OVER THE PLACE! LOLOL!

After we took this photo, we left for VIVO to get back to our respective destinations. YH had to leave for work first, leaving Angie and I. Then i was like : "Eh i wan go see doggy!" So we left for PET SAFARI!

WAH I TELL U!!!!

FUCKING CUTE AR! MOST OF THE DOGS THERE LIKE... WAH LAO!!!! CUTE LIKE... CUTE ONLY! HAHAHAHA!!! I SAW A POMERANIAN!!!! 4 months only! DAMN CUTE LIKE WAD ONLY! SO PLAYFUL OSO!!! I WAN I WAN I WAN I WAN!!! I WANNA NAME IT CHOCOLATE!

So... I think i will TRY to ask my parents to share money with me to buy that pomeranian.:) HOPEFULLY I GET PERMISSION.:)

K i now really tired already. Wanna sleep. GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!

Running To A New Place

Today, was.. quite dull. Woke up at 10 plus, lucky ariel [HE'S A GUY] call me. Then slowly prepare to go soccer. Totally took my time. LOL!

When i reached the place, there were no people in the court. And there were only the 6 of us, namely : Ma[R]tin, Ariel, Joey, Syahiran, Royston and I. Was actually quite lazy to play, AS USUAL...

We then proceeded to the court and play amongst ourselves. Syafiq came abit later and we were catching up with each other, when some guy talked to royston and syahiran outside. Then i was like, : "Is that bryan? OH THAT'S BRYAN! HEY BRYAN! OH WAIT. THAT'S NOT BRYAN. LOL!"

DAMN PAISEH! HHAHAHAHAHA! But i laughed it off.:)

After a while, Ma[R]tin and Hady [LONG TIME NVR SEE HIM SIA!] came too!

Anyway... That dude was some other guy, with a team. YAY FINALLY A CHALLENGER!

K wait. I very sian. Go facebook awhile. HAHAHAH!

K sian of facebook already. HAHHAHA!!

Now.. Where was i...

Ok. The paiseh shit. Then their team came in and play, 5v5 and all that blah. We played until a point where i was trying to get the ball from this particular guy. This guy... Didn't really cover the space correctly, so i just jutted in and "wrestled" for the ball. Guess what?

I gave him a "LITTE" nudge. TAKE NOTE : LITTLE. SERIOUSLY SMALL NUDGE!

And he slipped and he fell. -.-" Loser sia. Then i was like. Whoa... Stop the game and like say sorry and help him up. Then he point me middle finger then say CB! I was like... wth? HAHHAHA! i was like smiling and all, since i hear the words CB in school almost every other minute. Apparently he knocked his thigh, which is like... Zzzz Like that only... Then pissed off until like that.

I'm PRETTY sure he is going to KPKB about this like now. HAHHA!! Telling all his friends on how "rough" i was supposedly to him. Which is like.. [I just HAVE to say this, learn from my facilitator.]

Wait. I smell something. DAMN STRONG. Do you smell it? You can't? IT SMELLS LIKE... BULLSHIT!

He hsan't even tasted rough yet. If i really challenge him, he DIE ar. Leg break until gao gao ar. Can break into 3-4 pieces. LOL JUST KIDDING. Now that i think of it, it has been a long long time since i played rough. Only when i sec 4 that time then like rough rough, because the other team was like really KNNCCBPBK [KaninaCaoCheeBaiPuBorKia.:)]

Anyway... We finished the game and we won. [OBVIOUSLY. :p]

Hady [i didn't know that he did], syahiran and i then take a smoke break, and after a while, joey and syahiran left to meet kiong. So we were left with, Ma[r]tin, Royston, Hady, Syafiq and I. Ariel left too. So we were talking crap. Crap until we shiok, then go IMM eat.

THEN... We finish eating at IMM, then continue talking crap again. DAMN STUPID! HAHAHAHAH! Oh yar Matin [HIS PROPER spelling] then passed me a vid of clement and i doing Wii Boxing. DAMN FUNNY MAN! I shall upload now!



HAHAHA! FUCKING STUPID! Especially the last part, where clement act one nice guy, then i fall for the trick! HAHAHAH! I like some siao kia punch here punch there, punch until all my muscle come out. :p Tiring sia! HAHHAAH! Oh well hope u enjoyed the video!

I think.... Later i will go down to buy so moose [if it's spelt this way] for my hair. Then can go down walk walk.:)

K i going to nua around the hse already!

JUST FOR CAREY CHUA!

CHUA JING JING!

It truly has been a long time since we chatted!
And as you have already stated, 8 hours!
Our personal BEST record! HAHAH! Doubt we'll ever beat it again!

Now.. IF I OWE U A KINDER BUENO then...
I should get my LUNCH TREAT.:) HAHA!

I do miss the times where we caught up on the phone!
I do miss being extremly crazy and random with you over the phone!
I do miss having conferences and poking fun at other people! [E.G YAN JUN]
I DEFINITELY miss the KL trip, where we had LOADS of fun!
I do miss going back!

I miss you too!

WE MUST MEET UP SOON! WITH THE REST! [HINT FOR YOU TO ORGANIZE.:)]

Waiting.

I. HAVE. ALOT. ALOT AND ALOT OF THINGS TO TYPE DOWN RIGHT NOW!

LIKE RIGHT NOW!

First of all....


THANKS TO ANGIE JIE JIE AND JING SQUARE! Thks for helping out. Even though i was still kinda bummed after chatting. I'm much much better now. [Jing Sqaure. I wanted to call u leh, budden i found out, i lost ur number. LOL! Only got ur home phone number. and i paiseh call. :p]

Anyway.. I met YH after chatting with Angie on the hp for like 1 hr? I've talked more. MUCH MUCH more in fact. Just ask Jing Square. I don't think we can EVER break our record again. HAAHHAAH! Ok, so i was still bummed out as i've already stated just now, and i had a long long talk with YH. And after that extremely long talk, i felt alot better.

Then came the next day, which is TODAY! I was like... Getting more and more elated. Seriously. Happy like shit only. LOL! And i MEAN it. HAHAHA! Today, PLENTY of things to make me happy like shit.

So let me share with you my activities for the day.

ONE.

Go to BBDC and top-up money for my tp.
But i forgot to renew my PDL. Which is like Zzzzz. Frigging Lame.

I had lunch with YH before going to BBDC, and Ronald came just when we were finishing our meal at S11 [Bukit Batok.] Damn funny they all. Turns out, when i'm lazy, everyone else seems to be full of energy. But when I'M energtic, everyone like pieces of lazy shit. HAHHAH!

I forced them to walk all the way to BBDC [NOT THAT FAR WAD...] and they were complaining about how hot it was. HAHAHAH!!!! Ok lah.. Not THAT hot, partly because i wearing my muay thai singlet. HAHHAHHA!!!

But YH made us sit the bus over to BBDC when we reached gombak MRT station. HAHAH! Glad we took it actually, it was starting to get quite hot.

TWO.

CUT MY HAIR YO! HAHAHA! Ms ANGIE jie jie, was suppose to come down and watch our hair get cut and drop to the floor. HAHAH! But she couldn't make it last minute. Oh well, her loss. HAHAHAH! Nvr see Ronald and I's EXTREME makeover. LOL!

The hair cut... Not bad.. HAHAHA! NOW. I CAN FINALLY SAY.

I.
DO.
NOT.
LOOK.
LIKE.
AN.
AH.
BENG.

YAY!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH!!!

Now let me take a PEEK-A-TURE to show u.:)



I like that "twinkle" my ear stud gave off.:) HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!



Too bad can't really see the colour. HAHA Cause YH say i look old with my new colour. LIKE BULLSHIT. IT'S LIKE COOL UNTIL LIKE... SPEECHLESS LIAO! HAHHAHA
Shit man. My BHB level suddenly go high like crazy. :p

OH YAR! I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT THIS! Picture taken when they were in the middle of HIGHLIGHTING my hair. DAMN FUNNY! I LOOK LIKE SOME MONSTER FROM A HORROR MOVIE!



DAMN STUPID PLZ!

THREE.

Erm. Wait. Lemme think...

OH... This one's gonna be a short one. MARLBORO ICE BLAST BABY! They made me day a LITTLE better ytd. Cause i was the first person to get my hands on the stock.:)

Tribute to a stick of death. To which i can choose to end, IF I WANT TO.:)



FOURTH.

DOGGY DOGGY!!! I WANT TO HAVE A DOGGY OF MY OWN! AND ANGIE MAY PROVIDE THAT CHANCE FOR ME! But seems that, that chance MAY BE slim. Cause her didi wanna keep the dog for himself. BUT NO! I WANT IT! I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT!!! ANGIE! I WANTTTTTT!!!! I'm so gonna give u a wake-up call tml and pester u about the doggy! I WANNA NAME IT CHOCOLATE!

FIFTH.

THIS.
ONE.
MADE.
MY.
DAY.
LIKE.
WHOOOOOOO.

HAHAHHA! SNSD! FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARKING HOT I TELL U! Man... I think i dying already. FC until brain wanna explode liao. HAHAHAH!!


WHOO. HOT STUFF.



WHOO. TIFFANY! JESSICA! TAEYEON! SOOOOOO HOT... WAHHHH!!!!!!



K i think i post one more thing then i go sleep liao.

THIS. FINAL. ONE. DAMN FUNNY SHIT.

One of my modules in school, this was done during our break. HAHAH! Zombie Game, in 2 days 1 night. EPIC FAILURE. BUT FUNNY TO WATCH! My FACI and Ronald playing. Damn stupid. EVERYONE CHEAT LIKE WAD ONLY! HAHHAAH!

Rules : Zombie suppose to be blindfolded. Bite humans when they catch them, until they shout : "I SURRENDER!" [But we changed it to tickling, cause ronald scared. HAHAHA!]

Rules : Human suppose to just survive as long as possible. Human who survives longest wins.:)

SIXTH.

TADA! OUR FAILURE ATTEMPT! HAHAHAH!



HAHAH!!! THAT BODOH RONALD RUN SO MUCH! HAHAHAAH!!!

And thats all for now folks.:) GOODNIGHT! SWEET DREAMS!

Swing Day

K my fav Ben&Jerry's Ice-cream combos are here.:)

I go take first. Then i shall blog.

I'm still here. LOL! wtf man... FB until lazy take. K i think i WILL get up and take it now.

*Brief Intervention*

Done with the Ben & Jerry's Ice-Cream liao!

K currently msning with LP, Twin Brother, TTP and Wife.

Now like boring only. K nvm, I shall blog about this ENTIRE day!

WAKING UP FOR SCHOOL

Guess what time i finally stop nua-ing and got up from bed. My lesson starts at 9:15.

I got up at like 830am? Wasn't in the best of moods, never have been, for school at least. I was like... Sianned. Really sian. Then like dun wan go school like that, but have to, because i want to, because i realised that i haven pon this module yet, and i DO NOT intend on doing so.:) [Good Boy Seh!]

Tell u what.

what.

K lamed.

TO SCHOOL

Today on the way to school, i was so aware of my physical space. On the mrt, i felt like i had spikes or something on me. It was like, i wanted everyone to be like 1 metre away from me. Seriously. 1 metre. No less.

This girl got like alittle closer than the others, my face changed. Totally. She was like 2-3 steps away? And I DID NOT LIKE IT. Even if chio bu, i oso dun wan. I don't want any physical contact. Don't TOUCH me.

Irritating...

On my way to school, guess what was on my mind?
Nvm.
Don't Guess.
Unless UR Ronald or Yang Han or Kino or ZJ.
Something to do with ICE ICE BABY~

Yea.
Thats right...
Ice Blast. [WHICH TOTALLY RUINED MY MOOD EVEN MORE]

Guess i'll just have to settle with, as Ronald says, the GURU brand. LOL

CLASS TIME

Walked into class at about 930? Around there.

Apparently i had just missed a session of the GREAT SINGAPORE WORKOUT. [Glad i took my time walking to school.] I sat down and immediately, my faci pulled out a JUMPSTYLE video. I was like... WHAT?! But eventually i got into the mood for class.

Funny shit. Seriously. I want lessons to be like that from now on. I mean it. Fun. And WE LEARN. We workout. We sweat, and we get Healthier. Both physically and mentally.

1ST BREAK PERIOD

Didn't go out. Just stayed in class and nua-ed the whole time, sliding around the martial arts room, doing some random tecktonik moves, and learning the CARAMEL dance. HAHA funny dance. Act Cute only. :p

2ND MEETING

Nothing much, just more DDR and stuff, and even more tecktonik and caramel dancing. OH OH. Wondergirls and SNSD dance moves. Learning from youtube. Damn funny! Even got recorded down. You all should seriously see Ronald Eng Wei Yong. DAMN idiotic! But at least he made me happy for awhile.

2ND BREAK PERIOD

Asked Meng and Ronald to accompany me to shell, to check on the stock. AND WE WASTED OUR BLOODY ENERGY! No stock! Zzzz. Ahhh nvm, i still have, so still can wait. They better come soon though.

You know what? I'm lazy to write anything more liao.

K cya guys.

Oh and thks Jing Square! I'm glad u do take notice.:) Just that i don't know what the problem is. I want my free meal k? HA!

Klass-ified

Right now... I just think.. I'm dead. Wanna know why?

Oh well, even if you don't want to read, here it is.

I think... I've been dead since secondary school. Because... That was the time, where i lost my laughter. I wear my laughing face most of the time. To be a joker, lamer, nonsense-maker. Why?

I can't laugh truthfully anymore... I've lost the essence of laughing...

Hear my laughter
See my smile

I'm pretty sure their all conditioned responses already. I laugh to fit in, i laugh because it is supposedly healthier. I laugh, not because it is funny anymore. Those are just hollow cries of evidence that i'm dead.

I've been told, that a person's true personality comes out when they are tipsy or drunk. I laughed WHOLEHEARTLY for 1 hour AT LEAST, NON-STOP, the first time i got tipsy.

After that. I've realised. My laughter has been hollow. Empty, non-existant. My smiles are fake too. I just smile, because i don't want people to hate me. I smile, because i look friendlier that way. If i don't smile, i look pissed, i look murderous [thks to whoever that said that to me. Seriously.]

Secondary school. I tot i was stepping one emo. Black and all that shit. Guess what?

I'm turning darker inside by the second. Literally too.

I don't need someone to save me.
I don't need sympathy.
I don't need.
I don't.

Because i doubt.
Because i'm a non-believer.
Because i don't want to.
Because i'm pretty sure, there is no one.

I'm tired of wearing masks.
I don't wanna to go to school anymore.
I wanna sit down and just fade away.
I want to observe.
I then want to think about what i've observed.
I want to see people, yet i don't want them to see me.

Isn't that like a ghost?
I think i am a ghost.
Ghost can't laugh.
Ghost do what they want.

I do what i want.
Yet.
I do not want what i do.
Disgusting.
Contradicting isn't it?
Do you understand me?
You will never understand me.
My world is shut out from here.
Right now, even i don't have the keys.
But when i find it.
What do you think i'll do?
Don't even think about it.



Take a listen.
To my music.
Wait.
Don't.
You can't understand anyway.

I'll just give a hint.
Music makes me dream.
Dreaming makes me think.
And i am not the most optimistic person on earth.
HAHA!
Was that real?
Was that fake?
Can you tell?
If there was a tone in it.
If i said that right in your faces.
Would you understand?
Can you interpret?

Time.
Money.
Feelings.
Health.

All about me huh?
But you shouldn't care.
Because i don't care.
Caring is Sharing?
That proves i ain't sharing or caring huh?
Guess that's right.

Why is this klassified?
Make a guess.
This may be one of the few things you can guess correctly.
Go Go Go Go Go...

I think i said this before.
Lots of barriers.
Know what?
No you don't.
I'll just tell you.
Their getting thicker.
Interpret.
I'll tell you though.
Many things are related to it.
Thicker.
Heavier.
Soon i'll just sink.

This.
Is.
Darker.
Than.
BLACK.

I'm not done.
You thought that was the end didn't you.
Don't lie.
Because i'll just catch you.

Lying...
Most fun thing to do?
I think quite so.
I lie.
Everyday.
Am i lying?
I tell u that i lie everyday.
I said.
I tell u that i lie everyday.

WHAT SAY YOU?
Wait.
I don't want to hear it anymore.
Now.
I have something that i want.
Catch.
Get the catch?

Oh.
I forgot.
I'm too confusing already.
Read.
Continue reading.
People.
Just continue.
Satisfy me.
Feed me.
Tell me.
Show me.
Care for me.

Because i can't.
Do.
It.
For myself.

You must have tot something dirty for that.
Lies.
Emotional.
Psychic.

Make me up.
Understand?
I doubt you do.
Even my parents don't understand.

I've been told by my relatives.
They don't understand what i do sometimes.
They LIED.
They.
Don't.
Understand.
What i do.
MOST.
OF.
THE.
TIME.

I'm like an ant.
Apparently.
Crowding around those electrical wires.
For who knows what.

I don't want to try.
I'm thinking.
How?

Who do you think you are?
Wondering?
Wondering about?
Wondering about who this question is for?
Continue wondering.
If you wonder.
Then you'll never get the answer.
There are ONLY two answers.
Think.
But i think everyone will just misunderstand.

And why am i somehow happy about it?
FUCK THIS SHIT.
HAHA!
I'm growing.
Something i don't know.
Into.

Go figure.
Should be easy.



How does it feel?
I don't know.
What am i feeling now?

I think i should give a chance.
Hey people.
One chance.
I may give more.
But i'm afraid.
Afraid.
That.
I'll be gone.
Before.
Another chance comes.

PASS PASS PASS!

ONE HIT K.O! Thats what needs to happen tml. First time's the charm for me, well... So far. HAHAHA! BTT first time pass, FTT first time pass. TP OSO! I WAN FIRST TIME PASS!!!! I'm still coughing like shit. Idiot. But hopefully tml i don't get affected by it tml.

That time when Kiong ask me whether i confident, i replied : OF COURSE AR! HAHAHAH! Now ar... WAH... Starting to feel a little ueasy. AHHHHHH!!!!! I need Ben&Jerry Ice-Cream now. LIKE NOW. LIKE *turns head around* and *poof* Ben&Jerry Ice-Cream with a spoon there for me to eat, on the table. NOW. @$%^!

NVM. I will study YH's driving manual for ONE last time TODAY, before i set off tml. Like.... FWAH.... I really wanna eat Ben&Jerry! T.T

Today stupid lor... The instructor guy... I called him, and asked him whether got slot for lesson anot, today and tml morning. Then he say, he will get back to me. THEN..... NOW WHAT TIME ALREADY?! Still haven even SMS me. Seriously WTF. Zzzzz.

K nvm... First i talk about school today.

OH WAIT. I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL TODAY! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL! Well... Technically i did, but... Half the class left, and most of us went to the cinema.:) We watched... PARANORMAL ACTIVITY!!! WHOOOO!!!!

I was like so so so desperate to watch that movie.:) Cause like cool only.:) Razmi [Razmi's Theme Song : Satisfaction RAZMI REMIX! Supposedly playing here] even forced himself to finish his pizza just so that we could pull another one of our classmates to watch it.:) HAHAHAHHA!!! DAMN FUNNY! Eat until left the last mouthful then the pizza fell on the floor. LOL! Then i passed him my last bite to complete the challenge. HAHHA!!!!

PARANORMAL ACTIVITY

It was not bad... Quite funny actually! AHAH! Cause of the couple fights. DAMN STUPID AND FUNNY I TELL U! Typical i give u promise, but somehow manage to weave and achieving something that i DID promise, but did not not break the promise in the process.:) Got one part, SIA LAH. LIKE DAMN SCARY FOR THE GIRL LAH! As in the main character girl. I shall not give spoilers for this particular movie. Cause this movie if given spoiler... Really spoil the movie. But movie not bad, just that i think my bunch of friends and i were kinda noisy just now? AHAHAH!! Laugh laugh, when it is suppose to be scary. Which was... But just humourous too.:)

Now for my parents!!!

DADDY & MOMMY

They came back earlier this morning, at like i think 1 plus? I think i was asleep already. Yar. I was asleep already. Cause no recollection of them making noise, just that my aunt tell me they should be back at like 1 plus.

Can't say i wasn't elated when they came back home.:) Safe and sound.:) But the fact that they didn't let me drive the car really ticked me off alittle. HAHAH! Oh well. I'll pass tml and DRIVE MY DAD'S CAR! HAHAHH!!!!

Anyway... My dad cooked dinner for the family today. I was sleeping, apparently when i got home from my so called "class-outing", i just slumped into bed and fell asleep. Dinner was great.:) But i didn't eat alot, well, not as much as i usually do. And once again.. My dad complain again... SO MUCH RICE! Then my usual response... Then i eat lah... To which he settled down. LOL Like little kid sia when i type like that. HAHHAH!!!!

Oh well. I don't care about the car thingy, cause i'll drive their car sooner or later.:) For now, i'll just patiently wait. And HOPEFULLY. Tml i PASS! WHOOO!!!!!

K. I go find some other thing to do.:)

To Dear ZJ and IKA

ZJ. I don't know whether you will read this, because i don't think i will give you this link. But today, YH and I were talking about you.

I'm still quite bummed because this is the first time i cannot offer any help to a friend. YH told me because you are older, you have witnessed and experienced things that i have yet to. It is because so, my words cannot do any help.

Although i have not been through most of what you have been through. I just wanna say, no hardship cannot be overcome. The first thing, is get past yourself, because that is how we grow. That i know, because i still seem to have a shell of the past with me, which i still cannot leave entirely behind. I can smoke with you, i can sit with you, i can be the listening ear. I've been leaned on, so i can offer my shoulder as a friend. I know we are both guys, and that we all have ego.

But i feel, that it is okay, to drop your barrier and defences once in a while. That i know too, because i still bury my heart deep within multiple layers of fortresses. That time, when i stayed over at your house with Angie and Yang Han, i kept quiet all the way. Although i have never dropped it all before, but i have dropped my defences bit by bit and it has helped me.:) Confused you may be, unsettled your heart may be. Call me a k-p-o, i don't care. You say that you are a pessimistic, and although i may not be the brightest of people around, i am still confident that i CAN lend a helping hand. Because it sucks to see a friend like you being down in this state.

Cheer up eh ZJ?

IKA. Ms stiki!! I've heard of the news, and i am deeply sorry for what has happened. I will not tell you that it was her time. Because we all want our parents to be there forever. When i lost my grandfather, i cried like a baby, maybe even worse. The thing that shocked me most, was that, i wasn't really close with my grandfather. I didn't really like him when i was younger. Yet i shed tears when i saw him laying at the hospital bed motionless, and because of that, i am sure. That i am unable to comprehend what you are going through right now.

We may not be the closest of friends, but i hope that you will stay strong, and not do anything foolish. There must be no regrets, for each situation you regret, your heart grows heavier, and soon one will not be able to pull themselves up anymore. You may not be able to talk about your mother for period of time without losing control over your emotions, that i can understand, but getting through this difficult time is crucial. You have a big group of friends waiting right beside you to support you all the way.:) And we will always try our best to help.:) This wound is deep, we all know it, we would wish not to experience it, however it will and must happen, therefore, our ears will always be open, our shoulders will be there for you to cry on.

Stay strong STIKI! Hope to see you in school soon.:) I'll give you a hug k!

Think Of It As...

I've just got back home from a slack session today. Met YH after his driving, cause i couldn't get to sleep, didn't feel like sleeping, and i wanna slack outside, DAMN SIAN.

So i met YH at the 187 bus-stop near our hse. Then... the usual... Smoke smoke smoke, walk walk walk, chat chat chat, eat eat eat. We walked all the way to Bukit Gombak to eat some prata. I'm pretty sure alot of people will be disappointed at the amount of sticks i took today. But... I've already disappointed alot of people.

Throughout the slack session, i ranted at YH about my sibilings and other stuff, which i can't seem to recall now. Short-memory-loss liao. Zzzz.

YH and i were chatting about our driving and stuff, until we came to the topic of N&G. I will not care to list out their names. I've already almost forgotten them. I don't want to remember them anymore in fact, just another not-worth it distraction. YH and i were contemplating about whether we should make a chalet this holiday. Well... We're stuck. Because of those two idiots. Oh fuck. I don't give a shit.

But talking about it... Made me understand.

Trust is hard to give, but even harder to earn.

I can give trust, but if it is thrown away, high chance you won't ever get it again. N. I told Ragu, i would be there for you with him and YH when you fall. I've changed my mind. I won't let you fall. I throw you down even further, G is not of a concern anymore if you fall. You would have lost ALMOST everything, but i WILL make you lose everything.

You strained our friendships, i'll help you cut them off.:) Isn't that so nice of me.:)

I hope, i get drunk infront of the two of you.

You said you were tipsy, ok lets just take it JUST a step further, you two were drunk. I'll be drunk, and i'll say things that i WANT to say, do things that i WANT to do. And my answer to my actions? Oh i was drunk, i couldn't control what i was doing.:) Seems like a nice excuse huh? But i think it will sound EXTREMELY familiar.:) I'm just saying.:)

I think it may continue like that until i go train again.

Sunday, which was yesterday, royston sort of convinced me to go for NUFC's match. HAHA against this SONG BO FC! First time i see a team with a more stupid team name than ours. HAHHAHHA!!

Anyway, when i reached the match place right.. I wasn't like motivated for the match or anything. So... Solution... U know... Which... put me STRAIGHT into adrenaline. Crazy shit. My heart was beating like mad, just ask Royston TWIN BROTHER! He felt my pulse. HAHA!

I got subbed in, in the second half of the match. Still not wanting to run or anything. HAHA!

Apparently the team took a video. So here it is.:)

My MOST relac game EVER. HAAH!!


I'm the guy with the red socks who had half of his shirt pulled up for like the remainder of the video. HAHAHAH!! But at least they caught my POWER first-touch. :p

But as you all can see... I was like.. heck care ar. HAHHAH! Walk here walk there. LOL! Too bad they nvr video when i sprinting. I wanna see sia!! See how bloody hell slow i am! HAHHA! But just wait till i start my sprinting training again.:)

Oh. We lost 4:2. But the good thing is... Roys and i nvr pay. HAHHHAHAH!!!! We pretend to shoot here shoot there after the game, then they all forget we nvr pay. HHAHAA! NICE ONE BROTHER!

K i shall start my rotting routine now.

This is what you get when u are born between June 21 to July 22.:)

Cancer Astrology June 21 - July 22
Cancer Strength Keywords:
- Loyalty
- Dependable
- Caring
- Adaptable
- Responsive
Cancer Weakness Keywords:
- Moody
- Clingy
- Self-pitying
- Oversensitive
- Self-absorbed


Cancer and Independence:
Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family.


Cancer and Friendship:
Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted.


Cancer and Business:
Once cancer resolved their emotional issues such as shyness and insecurity, the powerful character will shine though, there is practically nothing they can't do. They have incredible perseverance and will stand up for what they believe in. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. They are excellent business people and investors because of their intuitive and psychic ability and their creative forward thinking mind, they are able to predict future trends. They attract wealth very well and know where to invest. Money and financial well being is very important to Cancer and this can help their drive in business. They need financial security and if they allow themselves to properly focus their energy and do not allow their emotions to over take them, they are more then capable of obtaining their financial goals and being incredibly successful business people.

Cancer Temperament:
They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, they can be irritable and cranky. They have an uneasy, delicate temperament. The contradictory nature of Cancer gives their temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums. They are easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time when they get hurt.


Cancer Deep Inside:
It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people. This causes built up anger and resentment inside, the contradictory nature really takes a toll on them and they can have a negative outlook on life, thinking that life is just too hard and miserable. This is unfortunate because when good experiences are to be had, they are skeptical of people and their surroundings and they experience tunnel vision due to their depressed outlook and they miss the nice things and happy experiences in life that make it worth living. In addition to lack of trust for people, Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this is other reason why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. Cancer lives in the past. They hold past events close to them and often dwell on the past. They have to learn to let go and live in the present instead of spending their time being sick with nostalgia. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. Cancer is constantly feeling, feelings and emotions are hallmarks of this sign and this is the root of their problems, human beings are not as evolved in the emotional area and this is where cancer gets the brunt of their problems. They are the ones who have to cope with their strong feelings more so then any other sign. Once properly harnessed, there is nothing that is this powerful astrology sign can not accomplish. Harmony is very important to Cancer, it keeps them happy. Conflict of any kind causes great distress. Deep inside, Cancer is a very powerful sign, they have the ability to stand up for what they think is right and they have lots of perseverance and can be fine on their own provided they don't let their emotions get the better of them and have the stability they need. They are not fond of change but they have the ability to do what needs to be done, they are not pushovers or lazy people.


Cancer in a Nutshell:
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake.

Drive Drive Drive

WHOO. I'm back. From a 4 hour chiong session for driving. WAH TODAY. DAMN TIRED I TELL U! Although there have been times where it was worse. But still... Gotta admit. Tiring day. Who gives a shit about acting all tough and shit. I JUST WANNA SHOUT! "I'M TIRED AND I'M HUNGRY! FEED ME THEN PUT ME TO SLEEP!" HAHAHAHAAH!!!

Anyway.. On to my driving first. ONCE AGAIN... I must state this again... TP. 21st NOV 2009. So in order to at least give myself a fighting chance to pass the thing, i've been relentlessly booking schedules for driving. Which has put me in a tough spot several times already this week. Two days only, but wah lao, i like already wanna die. hahha!!! Oh well. NVM!

Today's lesson, first chionging slot, was from 5-7pm. Road-driving. Normal go on the road and cause accidents and laugh about it driving. Just kidding. LOL! Just normal driving lor, learn how to turn, accelerate, [was actually wanting to put speeding here, budden scared skaly my instructor kenna.][Oh i just put it. HAHAHAH! WHO CARES!] brake and change lanes properly. Not bad... Just that my turning... Instructor still scared he die. LOL!!!

Ok.. Then the next chionging slot, from 7-9pm. TAKE NOTE PEOPLE! 7-9! SEVEN TO NINE. Which meant.. No dinner. BASTARD!!!! And i couldn't force myself to eat before because i was too tired and not feeling hungry at all. This session, is the most fruitful one out of all the lessons that i've been to. DAMN POWER! Instructor was precise in his explanations and he often asked me to come out and see how i was manouvering the car. That really helped me alot.

PLUS.. He told me how points would be deducted for each of my individual mistakes. NICE. I LIKE IT. Like that i can at least scare myself to drive SAFELY. He made me check my blindspots and stuff EVERYTIME I DO ANYTHING. Now i think can become habit liao [YES YANG HAN I KNOW I SAID THAT IT TAKES 21 DAYS TO FORM A HABIT. THIS ONE DIFFERENT OK! DON'T BE A FRIEND RIGHT NOW! LOL!!!]

But this particular instructor funny. Either he is DAMN INSECURE, or DAMN BHB [No shame]. HAHAH! He kept asking me, "i good right?". Then i just like uhh~ uhh~ HAHAHAHA!! Raymond is his name, being precise is his game! Now i MUCH MUCH more confident for my TP. Well at least for the circuit part, some of it.:) I'll need more practise.:)

Ok i'm getting quite tired right now.. Tml still have to wake up in time for my lessons, one at 11am, and the next one at 5pm. Then AFTER THAT... RAGU'S PERFORMANCE IN SCHOOL! JIA YOU AR RAGU! I'll shout "VERY VERY GOOD DANCING~ in the YOU KNOW WHAT ACCENT" after ur done dancing.:) HAHHAHAHAH!!!

K time to prepare to go makan first. Then after that go sleep.:) Hopefully don't get heartburn anytime soon, because i'm pretty damn sure i'm gonna get a sore throat soon. And having any one of them sucks. K i'm off!

A revisit to the past.

OK. I'M BACK. From driving. Wah.. Sian-ed out. Today i drive. Like first day learning how to drive. T.T So not motivated for my TP. But anyway.. My instructor tell me, if i observe people while they drive and how they drive, I will learn faster and better.:) So.. THANKFULLY... PRITPAL DRIVING TML! WHOO!!!

Oh and finally, I drove at night. Wah. Still so many cars man.. Change lane oso not very confident. But nvm.. I WILL LEARN!

Now, wait for yh to come over and we shall watch that slumdog millionaire movie. THEN I PREPARED FOR TML LIAO! COME ON AR!

K i go cook maggie mee. Damn hungry sia..

Stupid. Really. Stupid.

Ok as i've stated just now, i have more things to say. Am listening to Amoled by Son Dambi and After school. Just came back from lunch with my family. As usual... Eating with them pisses me off! Sometimes.. I really just wanna slap their faces all over the place. CB!

Little sis is so pampered. She should just get slapped like.. Ok lah i nice guy. So maybe about 1000 times? Good enough already.:)

Little brother. I know exactly how he feels right now. DAMN DISAPPOINTED. Cause cnt go arcade and play. LOL! Parents power lah. Bastard only, same as last time only.

OH SHIT! My mom just came into my room, and looked outside my window! STUPID CAR! HORN FOR WAD! And beside my table... are you know what! DIE! Wonder if she saw anot. Oh well. Nvm. She nvr say anything then shld be ok for the moment.

Ok continue for my brother. Erm. His face damn black right now. LOLOLOLOLOLOL! I wanna laugh at him. Like seriously. HAHAHAHA! Apparently my parents promised my little sibs that today can play arcade after lunch. But they have tuition at 3:30pm, which means they have to be at home by 3 to prepare. And guess wad time we ate lunch? 2:30pm! LOL so.. You shld know why my bro face so black. LOL!

Plus. We supposedly have to use a card to swipe at the machine. My younger than me but elder than the rest sis like purposely nvr bring. And she act like nothing wrong like that. So obvious she purposely. Then when u accuse her, she give the fucked up face and attitude. REALLY FORGET LAH! zzz I lazy comment on my sibilings liao. All lan jiao lang and cb kias.

Just now when i was eating lunch, the instructor/book lesson guy called. At first he asked me whether i can start lesson at 430pm, then since i already like made up my mind to pon my "test" [which is really a frigging exam.] i was like anything lor. Then a few minutes later.. He called again. This time... Bringing erm... i would say BETTER news.:) Lesson at 10pm, at the esso beside the BBDC. Doing circuit.:) YAY!

That means. I will be able to take my UT for tml. I would be able to go for the Talk after school.:) And i will be able to attend the workshops.:) YAY!

But there are TWO drawbacks.

Firstly : Slumdog Millionaire. I have to watch this movie in order to understand what is going to be asked in my UT [Understanding Test] tml. I don't have the movie, i am DEFINITELY not gonna download it. But luckily my dad help me rent it.:) THANKS DADDY! ONLY YOU AND MOMMY TODAY NICE! THE REST CAN FUCK OFF.:) Excluding the maid.:) She still ok.:)

Secondly : Although i will be having the lessons later, i would still be using my energy for workshops and stuff. And i would be using more, because i am able to. Which means... This whole coming week. I will be drained like shit. OMFGZ!!!! NVM! I AM HYPERACTIVE! But only when i want it to happen. THEREFORE. THIS WHOLE WEEK! OVERDRIVE!

As for today. My lesson is at 830pm at gombak there.:) Until 10pm.:) Then after that... I must chiong home to watch SLUMDOG MIILIONAIRE! Yh oso coming over to watch, cause he cnt rmb the movie. LOL! Lucky he live like only opposite block. Then finish can just walk home.

OK SINCE I'M SUCH A NICE GUY! I SHALL POST ON MSN TO ASK WHOEVER WHO HASN'T WATCHED SLUMDOG MIILIONAIRE WHETHER THEY WANNA COME OVER AND WATCH ANOT. TONNING IS OK.:)

Meanwhile... I shall... CHIONG KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN! To see why angel, ronald and fizli so high over it. I find it quite boring leh. At least in the beginning. Not much power one. NVM! I SHALL PERSEVERE! JUST CHIONG ONLY!

CYA GUYS! [OH YAR! Angie! Monday help me with the tagboard for this blog k?]

Slack Time. HAHA!

SATURDAY!!! Which was yesterday...

I was REALLY REALLY bored yesterday. There were no driving lessons [pathway to death], there was no soccer. Nobody came over to play kungfuchaos. BORING DAY LIKE WAD ONLY! Then i went to facebook [apparently i'm there 24/7, WHICH IS NOT TRUE!]. There i saw ZJ's post and we decided to go out! Well to erm, EAST COAST PARK!

Here is Mr ZJXTREME.:)


When we finally confirmed we were going to ecp, zj said that jill was coming along too. Which i thought was weird, cause she has a bf, and zj is kinda troubled so i thought maybe she oso got problems. SKALY... CHEY... Have homework. LOL Then must come out and do. HAHAHAHAH! Oh yar! When we met at ecp, jill happened to wear green. LOL! Then zj complain say we couple dressing! Damn nonsense lah he! HAHAHAH!

This is Ms RP[CHEY MS RP SIA! LOL!] and i.:)


Oh and this picture! RAWR! STUPID ANTS! Bite me! When i nvr kill any of them! So i took revenge by killing them back. LOL! ZJ warned me that next life i become an ant and kenna step oso. Which i said... CONFIRM ONE! LOL. Yang Han earlier that day oso warned me. LOL WHICH I GAVE THE SAME ANSWER! HHAHAHA!

Stupid Ants.


And since we were at ecp, there was bound to be kite-fliers around.:) And i caught this DORAEMON KITE! cool only! Got a couple of others, but they too high already, this lousy camera! hahaha! Got one still got lights on it sia! But too dark, and too high, i cannot take a picture of it. Sian..

But nvm.:) Enjoy this DORAEMON!


Later on, we saw this indian family! DAMN FUNNY LAH THEY ALL! HAHAH! I feel quite sad for their son. LOL! They dug a hole, damn deep lah! Then they placed their son inside! HAHAHAH! The poor kid like gonna cry anytime like that! LOLOLOLOLOL! The kid in red is the poor guy. HAHAHAH!!! Oh well, all in the name of fun yea? HAHAH!

LOLOLOL SAD CASE!


This was the last picture of the day! At sunset! Jill helped to take a photograph of me.:) Which was like... Total failure! AHAHAHAH!!!

Supposedly... Nice... AHAHAHAHAH!!!


K I GO EAT LUNCH FIRST! I GOT MORE THINGS TO SHARE LTR!!!