I just finished watching this program on tv i recorded. The 7 Deadly Sins. And it has seriously left me thinking. We all know that if we commit any of the sins, we may most prolly be condemned or punished in who knows what way. And the people who may be involved in our punishment are these individual demons related to the sins.
And thus, comes my question. If we are to be punished for our sins, aren't those demons sinning as they punish us? If so, why aren't they being punished, why do they have the option to punish us? But perhaps this question will be the most frightening. Can we become demons? To use sinners as objects to project the individuals sins that demons are so commonly associated with? Will the demons responsible or associated with their sins die? Wad if they die? Will the position be taken away? Will there be new head demons?
Destruction and Peace may come with the answers.
Will i be granted with enlightment?
We all know why i am asking this question. And it may not be what we want to hear. If I can be the SIN itself, why not?
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Sore Aftermath. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE GIAN HONG KAI!
Hello! I've just woken up from my kinda deep slumber. Alarm rang at 8am, but aiya, just sleep only. AHHAAHA!!! Was too tired to blog ytd, it was a really enjoyable day and because it was quite enjoyable, i had no energy left to think. HAHA! *Excuses*
OK. FIRST THING FIRST, MY BUTT DAMN SORE RIGHT NOW, RIGHT FOREARM OSO! And let me tell u why.:) Ytd, i went to play badminton with Joey, Kiong, Syahiran, Clement and Faidi. And since i haven't played badminton in a long long time, as expected, my body cnt adapt to the sudden running and smacking shit. Hahaha! So sore butt and forearm muscles. Noob. I know. LOL
And after our badminton, we sat outside gekpoh to slack. Syahiran was imitating the wondergirls dance, so... Kiong tot it would be a good idea to video him. HAHAHA! HE VIDEO UNTIL SO OBVIOUS SYAHIRAN OSO DUNNO, REALLY WEIRD AR HE! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!! The video is on my facebook.:) Just check my profile - videos and u'll see it.:)
Anyway.. After slacking for awhile, we were really bored, so syahiran came up with his usual, "purchasing". To which everyone agreed, who doesn't wanna get "purchased" stuff? So i wanted to "purchase" Ben&Jerry's Ice-cream, but we could only manage to take one, oh well, better than nothing yea.:) I forgot how many things we "purchased", but it was quite alot.
We then made our way over to Kiong's hse. Then GANG HAO [Just right in chinese], the fann wong and christoper lee wedding thingy was playing. So we eat maggie and watched. Their wedding very the massive sia, like King and Queen getting married like that. LOL Next time my wedding i think also not as much as half of the amount of people ar. Oh well, that's still a long way to go yea. HAHA! We played with Kiong's Dog, baby. Funny sia that dog, scared of water bottle. HAHHA! I have the video here, i shall put it up here.:)
TA-DA! Kiong's WTF DOG.:)
But i think i recorded in the wrong speed. LOL It was on super fast. So i think the video should be damn fast lah.
LOL REALLY DAMN FAST LAH! HHAAHAH OH WELL. JUST ENJOY YEA! :P
Anyway. Today is WEDNESDAY! My lil bro's birthday! Wishing him a happy birthday and good results for his exams! Anyway, i was suppose to go to tui na with ariel today, but his mom asked him to stay at home. HAHAHA! I think his mom worried his injury might get worse lah, so no matter yea.:) Budden, there's one thing i quite irritated, like people keep saying sry. Actually should be like ok ok lah, but if people say it too many times, i like, irritated lah. LOL Ariel and Melissa. BEST! HAHAHAH!!!! Keep saying sry!
Ok back to lil bro's birthday. Anyway, ltr i will be meeting him for dinner, most prolly at swensens.:) But before we go to swensens, i will be bringing him around to search for his bakugan toy thingy, it will be his present. He's quite estatic about it. Oh well, as expected, i last time oso estatic over small toys. HHAHAHAHA! Guess can say i know what my brother wants and needs to keep him happy.:)
ALSO, SINCE TODAY IS WEDNESDAY.... Means i'm gonna take out my ear piercing for the first time! WHOOO! And put the blue diamond ear stud that i bought. WTF SIA, ex sia. Stupid thing so small, $2.50. Aiya, nvm, i shall get a bigger one for same price ar. I KNOW WILL HAVE ONE! just that have to slowly find.
Today, will be a great day.:) New shoes, New ear piercings, New presents. Tonight i will be clubbing.:) At butter factory.:) It's a onefullerton, yea that wads my fren told me. But i dun think i will be staying there all the way, once the free flow of drinks are over, it's OFF TO ANOTHER PLACE for me.:) Angie will be at rebel, Jazreel and peilin and li ting are gonna be at St.James Powerhouse, so i'll just see where i wanna go next.:)
So i'm going off now, well at least from my blog. OH OH OH!! I ALMOST FORGOT! I HAVE A PLAYLIST IN THE BLOG! SO HAPPY! But the songs.. Old only ar. HAHHA! but i like ar. So if reader dun like, too bad. LOL! HHAHAHAHAH!!! [If you prefer to hear any songs, just request it from me.:) I'll find it and put it inside.:)]
OK. FIRST THING FIRST, MY BUTT DAMN SORE RIGHT NOW, RIGHT FOREARM OSO! And let me tell u why.:) Ytd, i went to play badminton with Joey, Kiong, Syahiran, Clement and Faidi. And since i haven't played badminton in a long long time, as expected, my body cnt adapt to the sudden running and smacking shit. Hahaha! So sore butt and forearm muscles. Noob. I know. LOL
And after our badminton, we sat outside gekpoh to slack. Syahiran was imitating the wondergirls dance, so... Kiong tot it would be a good idea to video him. HAHAHA! HE VIDEO UNTIL SO OBVIOUS SYAHIRAN OSO DUNNO, REALLY WEIRD AR HE! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!! The video is on my facebook.:) Just check my profile - videos and u'll see it.:)
Anyway.. After slacking for awhile, we were really bored, so syahiran came up with his usual, "purchasing". To which everyone agreed, who doesn't wanna get "purchased" stuff? So i wanted to "purchase" Ben&Jerry's Ice-cream, but we could only manage to take one, oh well, better than nothing yea.:) I forgot how many things we "purchased", but it was quite alot.
We then made our way over to Kiong's hse. Then GANG HAO [Just right in chinese], the fann wong and christoper lee wedding thingy was playing. So we eat maggie and watched. Their wedding very the massive sia, like King and Queen getting married like that. LOL Next time my wedding i think also not as much as half of the amount of people ar. Oh well, that's still a long way to go yea. HAHA! We played with Kiong's Dog, baby. Funny sia that dog, scared of water bottle. HAHHA! I have the video here, i shall put it up here.:)
TA-DA! Kiong's WTF DOG.:)
But i think i recorded in the wrong speed. LOL It was on super fast. So i think the video should be damn fast lah.
LOL REALLY DAMN FAST LAH! HHAAHAH OH WELL. JUST ENJOY YEA! :P
Anyway. Today is WEDNESDAY! My lil bro's birthday! Wishing him a happy birthday and good results for his exams! Anyway, i was suppose to go to tui na with ariel today, but his mom asked him to stay at home. HAHAHA! I think his mom worried his injury might get worse lah, so no matter yea.:) Budden, there's one thing i quite irritated, like people keep saying sry. Actually should be like ok ok lah, but if people say it too many times, i like, irritated lah. LOL Ariel and Melissa. BEST! HAHAHAH!!!! Keep saying sry!
Ok back to lil bro's birthday. Anyway, ltr i will be meeting him for dinner, most prolly at swensens.:) But before we go to swensens, i will be bringing him around to search for his bakugan toy thingy, it will be his present. He's quite estatic about it. Oh well, as expected, i last time oso estatic over small toys. HHAHAHAHA! Guess can say i know what my brother wants and needs to keep him happy.:)
ALSO, SINCE TODAY IS WEDNESDAY.... Means i'm gonna take out my ear piercing for the first time! WHOOO! And put the blue diamond ear stud that i bought. WTF SIA, ex sia. Stupid thing so small, $2.50. Aiya, nvm, i shall get a bigger one for same price ar. I KNOW WILL HAVE ONE! just that have to slowly find.
Today, will be a great day.:) New shoes, New ear piercings, New presents. Tonight i will be clubbing.:) At butter factory.:) It's a onefullerton, yea that wads my fren told me. But i dun think i will be staying there all the way, once the free flow of drinks are over, it's OFF TO ANOTHER PLACE for me.:) Angie will be at rebel, Jazreel and peilin and li ting are gonna be at St.James Powerhouse, so i'll just see where i wanna go next.:)
So i'm going off now, well at least from my blog. OH OH OH!! I ALMOST FORGOT! I HAVE A PLAYLIST IN THE BLOG! SO HAPPY! But the songs.. Old only ar. HAHHA! but i like ar. So if reader dun like, too bad. LOL! HHAHAHAHAH!!! [If you prefer to hear any songs, just request it from me.:) I'll find it and put it inside.:)]
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
PIERCE! POKE! NO PAIN NO GAIN!
OK! LUCKY JING [SQUARED] REMIND ME! I SHALL WRITE THIS AWESOME POST RIGHT NOW! LOL!
K, now morning.... Today my mom woke me up to fetch my lil sis from sch, [coincidentally her nickname and jing [squared]'s real name the same], it was about 10am, around there lah. I was like... REALLY REALLY not willing to wake up, so i say orh ok, then go back sleep. LOL! Then she came in again at 1030 like that, then tell me : "EH FASTER LAH! WANT TO BE 11AM ALREADY!". Then.... I say : "5 more minutes, 5 more minutes lah!" So... Mom gave up and just let me sleep, but being a GOOD AND RESPONSIBLE BROTHER :p i got up and washed up and went to fetch my lil sis.:) [FEELS DAMN GOOD WHEN I READ IT. LOL!!!!]
Today, my goal was to leave 5 sticks for tuesday, which is like today. hahha. So, i had to take 6 sticks today. On my way to my lil sis's sch, i took 1. Ok not bad, 1 only. Then proceeded to bring her to meet my mom and lil bro for lunch. During "brunch", i told my mom wednesday i'll bring my lil bro to buy his birthday present and then leave for clubbing after his birthday celebration. Oh well, at least now i like care to share and willing to share more with my mom, so being a good mom and all, she gave me advice and told me to take good care and not waste money.
Afternoon was such a bore. Like SERIOUSLY. DAMN BORING I TELL U! Facebook like 5 minutes then sian already, oso no manga to read, youtube i dunno to search for what oso, tv oso nothing interesting, and dunno where to go if wanna go out oso. So... SIAN LOR!
BUDDEN. At around 3 plus, clement msn me to go out, go kiong hse, and before that go jp buy some stuff. Knee guard for his ligament thingy, and i was thinking of buying a pair of shoes, partly for tecktonik and partly for going out.:) Thus we met up and "shopped". So... I GOT CONVERSE SHOES! $79.90! LIKE WHOOOO! LOVE IT TO LIKE... AIYA JUST LOVE IT LAH! LOL!
And when we done buying our "needs", i told clement : "My fren and i going to pierce our ears when sch starts." To which he replied : "So long sia, do now ar." The rest of the conversation is as per normal, eg. "eh clement pain anot ar?", "how much ar?".
So... We went to.. I think is X-craft ar. Forgot the name liao lah, anyway, i recognize one of the ppl there lah, but dunno her. But i know is clement's younger batch one. Questions went, Answers came. Price : $3 Ear Stud : $2.50.
After everything was done, i was like... Ok ar.. Not bad ar, not pain oso. hahah! SO THIS COMING WEDNESDAY! I'M SO GOING TO WEAR THAT NEW EAR STUD AND NEW PAIR OF CONVERSE SHOES LAH! HAHHAHHAH!!!!
I shall try to find photos.:)
K HERE THEY ARE! AFTER SO MUCH HARD WORK!
Anyway... We played soccer over at kiongs, and i kicked the ball onto the roof. BLOODY HELL! And then, it got stuck at the pipes. Like. -.-" Then have to climb from the carpark over to the roof. Like wah lao eh... Then i wasted like 15 mins? ard there lah contemplating whether wanna jump down from the roof anot. LOL! I WAN JUMP, BUT I SCARED. HAHHAHAAH!!!! In the end oso go down like how i go up. LOL! Waste my feelings and energy only. HAHAHAH!! Oh well, that's so me.
As time passed... Nightfall... i was on my way home, and i checked my pack, there were 6 left, RULE SAYS I MUST HAVE ONLY 5 BY TML. So.. I took one lor. And as i finished it, i flicked it into the drain, as usual... But something happened after that, that made me shocked for awhile. My dad was jogging towards me in my direction, then i was like... "SHIT DID HE SEE?!" It felt awkward, but i think he didn't see, but i was like 10 steps away from being busted. Like SERIOUSLY busted. Oh well. Lucky day i guess.
So i got home, and immediately showed my new piercing off to my mom, to which she answer : "Both side got ar?, HUH? ONE SIDE ONLY?!". Clement said that it was normal, cause girls usually pierce both sides. Ah, no matter, i may just pierce both yea.:) HAHHAHA!!!
So... Now... Erm... Like that lor. HAHAH! Got more things to say ar, but ltr JING [SQUARED] wait till wan die ar. HHAHAHA!
K, now morning.... Today my mom woke me up to fetch my lil sis from sch, [coincidentally her nickname and jing [squared]'s real name the same], it was about 10am, around there lah. I was like... REALLY REALLY not willing to wake up, so i say orh ok, then go back sleep. LOL! Then she came in again at 1030 like that, then tell me : "EH FASTER LAH! WANT TO BE 11AM ALREADY!". Then.... I say : "5 more minutes, 5 more minutes lah!" So... Mom gave up and just let me sleep, but being a GOOD AND RESPONSIBLE BROTHER :p i got up and washed up and went to fetch my lil sis.:) [FEELS DAMN GOOD WHEN I READ IT. LOL!!!!]
Today, my goal was to leave 5 sticks for tuesday, which is like today. hahha. So, i had to take 6 sticks today. On my way to my lil sis's sch, i took 1. Ok not bad, 1 only. Then proceeded to bring her to meet my mom and lil bro for lunch. During "brunch", i told my mom wednesday i'll bring my lil bro to buy his birthday present and then leave for clubbing after his birthday celebration. Oh well, at least now i like care to share and willing to share more with my mom, so being a good mom and all, she gave me advice and told me to take good care and not waste money.
Afternoon was such a bore. Like SERIOUSLY. DAMN BORING I TELL U! Facebook like 5 minutes then sian already, oso no manga to read, youtube i dunno to search for what oso, tv oso nothing interesting, and dunno where to go if wanna go out oso. So... SIAN LOR!
BUDDEN. At around 3 plus, clement msn me to go out, go kiong hse, and before that go jp buy some stuff. Knee guard for his ligament thingy, and i was thinking of buying a pair of shoes, partly for tecktonik and partly for going out.:) Thus we met up and "shopped". So... I GOT CONVERSE SHOES! $79.90! LIKE WHOOOO! LOVE IT TO LIKE... AIYA JUST LOVE IT LAH! LOL!
And when we done buying our "needs", i told clement : "My fren and i going to pierce our ears when sch starts." To which he replied : "So long sia, do now ar." The rest of the conversation is as per normal, eg. "eh clement pain anot ar?", "how much ar?".
So... We went to.. I think is X-craft ar. Forgot the name liao lah, anyway, i recognize one of the ppl there lah, but dunno her. But i know is clement's younger batch one. Questions went, Answers came. Price : $3 Ear Stud : $2.50.
After everything was done, i was like... Ok ar.. Not bad ar, not pain oso. hahah! SO THIS COMING WEDNESDAY! I'M SO GOING TO WEAR THAT NEW EAR STUD AND NEW PAIR OF CONVERSE SHOES LAH! HAHHAHHAH!!!!
I shall try to find photos.:)
K HERE THEY ARE! AFTER SO MUCH HARD WORK!
Anyway... We played soccer over at kiongs, and i kicked the ball onto the roof. BLOODY HELL! And then, it got stuck at the pipes. Like. -.-" Then have to climb from the carpark over to the roof. Like wah lao eh... Then i wasted like 15 mins? ard there lah contemplating whether wanna jump down from the roof anot. LOL! I WAN JUMP, BUT I SCARED. HAHHAHAAH!!!! In the end oso go down like how i go up. LOL! Waste my feelings and energy only. HAHAHAH!! Oh well, that's so me.
As time passed... Nightfall... i was on my way home, and i checked my pack, there were 6 left, RULE SAYS I MUST HAVE ONLY 5 BY TML. So.. I took one lor. And as i finished it, i flicked it into the drain, as usual... But something happened after that, that made me shocked for awhile. My dad was jogging towards me in my direction, then i was like... "SHIT DID HE SEE?!" It felt awkward, but i think he didn't see, but i was like 10 steps away from being busted. Like SERIOUSLY busted. Oh well. Lucky day i guess.
So i got home, and immediately showed my new piercing off to my mom, to which she answer : "Both side got ar?, HUH? ONE SIDE ONLY?!". Clement said that it was normal, cause girls usually pierce both sides. Ah, no matter, i may just pierce both yea.:) HAHHAHA!!!
So... Now... Erm... Like that lor. HAHAH! Got more things to say ar, but ltr JING [SQUARED] wait till wan die ar. HHAHAHA!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
WOOF WOOF!
Sunday. Usually a family day. Sometimes it can be a match day. But today. It is a DAMN BORING day. AGAIN... Today, no soccer. SIAN LIKE WHAT ONLY!!! Ytd already no soccer, cause all say play today, then. suddenly all cnt make it. -.-" Like.. WAH. LAO. EH.
Oh well. I was actually thinking of going out. But the thing is, i dunno where to go and who to call along with me. Everyone else seems to be busy lah... Work, study, family day oso. Today oso nothing much lor as a family day. The usual... Just eat together for lunch. Then Dad goes back to the desktop for work, Mum pesters my younger brother for his homework, 2nd younger sis just trains to be a professional potato couch for the future, and 1st younger sis is doing her homework.
WAH DAMN SIAN AR! Right now, i wonder how many times this sentence has flashed through my head and through msn to people. LOL! Today, i haven had a single stick. Half of me like satisfied that i haven taken a single stick today, but the other half of me wanna go down and take 2 sticks or so.
Actually i feel, not bad already. To cut down to max of 6 sticks lah so far. The goal was to only take 5 sticks a day lah, but i took one more on a particular day. Like... Just one only lah, and i made up by smoking only 4 the next day. Well, now... i feel the situation is getting better lah, last time, when i finish smoking one, i will take out a second one like in less than a minute and start again. Now one stick can last me for maybe a few hours, or at least until the end of the next meal.:)
But anyway, most prolly i'll take one or two when i go downstairs later. Haha!
Now.... FOR THE HIGHLIGHT OF TODAY'S POST! Since i was so sian and bored at home, i was thinking of things that could take away the boredom. There were 3 things that i felt had the potential to help me fight sianness and boredom anytime.:)
*Back from a long refreshing shower...*
Ok... As i was saying... So Number 1. Soccer.:) My favourite sport outta all the sports in the world! But alas... There are not enough people who are capable and free to join me. And the mini soccer ball i have at home is not one i can play for hours. Unless... I want my neighbours below to complain. Besides, my dad is sleeping, meaning no noise to be created... DAYUUUUMMMMMM!
Next. Walk Walk!! Ok. Honestly, i am really really interested in going for a walk. Be it alone or with a couple of friends. However.... There is nothing that interests me in walking from place to place alone. Like, if there's a pet store or something, "MAYBE" i'll take a look. [CONFIRM LOOK ONE! LOL!] Then since nothing like that, then sian lor.... Friends.. Now oso quite late already, all should be preparing for dinner, so i dun wanna disturb them.
Then FINALLY.... PET!!!! I was thinking of having my very own pet from a very long time ago. But my mom tell me : "Can't even take care of urself want to take care of other things!". Then like. Wah. Lao. Eh. LOL! Anyway, i'm quite determined to get a pet dog by my birthday next year.:) So i was thinking wad breed i want to have. So after going to a few pet shops and looking online... I found two breeds that i am interested in.:) Both are small and cute, both are fluffy, and both are HDB friendly! So with that being said... Here are the two doggies!
POMERANIAN
AND
YORKSHIRE TERRIER!
So i wan either a white pomeranian or a dark brown yorkshire terrier! DAMN CUTE LIKE WAD ONLY!
K dinner time is approaching. So i shall take a leave first! [Oh yar. I still haven smoked today. Even though its like 6 plus already. YAY!]
Oh well. I was actually thinking of going out. But the thing is, i dunno where to go and who to call along with me. Everyone else seems to be busy lah... Work, study, family day oso. Today oso nothing much lor as a family day. The usual... Just eat together for lunch. Then Dad goes back to the desktop for work, Mum pesters my younger brother for his homework, 2nd younger sis just trains to be a professional potato couch for the future, and 1st younger sis is doing her homework.
WAH DAMN SIAN AR! Right now, i wonder how many times this sentence has flashed through my head and through msn to people. LOL! Today, i haven had a single stick. Half of me like satisfied that i haven taken a single stick today, but the other half of me wanna go down and take 2 sticks or so.
Actually i feel, not bad already. To cut down to max of 6 sticks lah so far. The goal was to only take 5 sticks a day lah, but i took one more on a particular day. Like... Just one only lah, and i made up by smoking only 4 the next day. Well, now... i feel the situation is getting better lah, last time, when i finish smoking one, i will take out a second one like in less than a minute and start again. Now one stick can last me for maybe a few hours, or at least until the end of the next meal.:)
But anyway, most prolly i'll take one or two when i go downstairs later. Haha!
Now.... FOR THE HIGHLIGHT OF TODAY'S POST! Since i was so sian and bored at home, i was thinking of things that could take away the boredom. There were 3 things that i felt had the potential to help me fight sianness and boredom anytime.:)
- Soccer.
- Walk Walk.
- MY VERY OWN PET.:)
*Back from a long refreshing shower...*
Ok... As i was saying... So Number 1. Soccer.:) My favourite sport outta all the sports in the world! But alas... There are not enough people who are capable and free to join me. And the mini soccer ball i have at home is not one i can play for hours. Unless... I want my neighbours below to complain. Besides, my dad is sleeping, meaning no noise to be created... DAYUUUUMMMMMM!
Next. Walk Walk!! Ok. Honestly, i am really really interested in going for a walk. Be it alone or with a couple of friends. However.... There is nothing that interests me in walking from place to place alone. Like, if there's a pet store or something, "MAYBE" i'll take a look. [CONFIRM LOOK ONE! LOL!] Then since nothing like that, then sian lor.... Friends.. Now oso quite late already, all should be preparing for dinner, so i dun wanna disturb them.
Then FINALLY.... PET!!!! I was thinking of having my very own pet from a very long time ago. But my mom tell me : "Can't even take care of urself want to take care of other things!". Then like. Wah. Lao. Eh. LOL! Anyway, i'm quite determined to get a pet dog by my birthday next year.:) So i was thinking wad breed i want to have. So after going to a few pet shops and looking online... I found two breeds that i am interested in.:) Both are small and cute, both are fluffy, and both are HDB friendly! So with that being said... Here are the two doggies!
POMERANIAN
AND
YORKSHIRE TERRIER!
So i wan either a white pomeranian or a dark brown yorkshire terrier! DAMN CUTE LIKE WAD ONLY!
K dinner time is approaching. So i shall take a leave first! [Oh yar. I still haven smoked today. Even though its like 6 plus already. YAY!]
Poum Poum Pi Dou
Ok so... Today is a saturday. And i'm at home now. DAMN SIAN I TELL U! No soccer. Although i also no mood to play soccer now. There supposedly will be soccer tomorrow, but i'm like quite sian to go leh. Although most prolly i'll still go for it. LOL Oh contradict myself again. AS ALWAYS! HAHA!
Anyway, i started this blog thingy quite late last night so i didn't have the mind to collect the events for the day.
So... Ytd. I was suppose to meet my "Wife" for a movie. "The Ugly Truth". Oh well, honestly, i just didn't feel like seeing her, especially with her classmates because there will be a chance i will see her and her "mysterious/unknown" boyfriend. Well saves me from a few sticks and a few emo periods.:)
Although i am quite shocked that she has a boyfriend, i'm glad that my choice is not bad. LOL At least got someone else wan. Oh well and they acted first. Well it shouldn't matter now, my friends asked me to wait patiently. Cause it's supposedly never too late.
Well.. Right now i just feel like clinging on, at least i don't leave the wound open there. I rather attempt to lie to myself than feeling the blow man... This takes me back to that day earlier last week, after i confessed, she say "i'll think about it". And i was like... WHOO! Maybe got chance!
Budden ltr that day... In the process in meeting up with my guy fren, i got many many signs. From my music mostly. And when i received and read the sms i got from her, i didn't even flinch. It was like i already knew it would not happen, just that it was how it would not happen yea.
So... Emo emo emo emo emo. EMO LIKE SHIT. LOL Drink oso dun wan drink, Smoke oso dun wan smoke. Didn't know what to do. But anyway, i got over it after a few days. Many thanks to my frens who gave me a listening ear, a couple of drinks and a totally tricked out dance.:) TECKTONIK FTW YEA!
Now that i think of it, when i blew off our appointment, she didn't ask why. And i think i already know why, my fren thought of the exact same reason, she felt awkward. Honestly, i won't feel awkward. Because i'm already like done with it. But for her, the shock still hasn't settled in yet.
She wrote on her blog, that she wanted to be taken back to the day i confessed, and said that she didn't want to lose me as a friend. Well, i'm thinking she was hoping i would take a look at her blog. And she got her wish, if she did wish for it. :p
Ytd the reason i called her out, was so to tell her that she has never lost me as a friend and she will never lose me as a friend. But i had a long talk with my other friend, and after that talk, i just didn't feel like seeing my "wife". Not because of the awkward-ness [i can deal with that so damn easily. LOL], but as i've already said, because of the potential of being being slit again.
Right now, i'm listening to Poum Poum Pi Dou by John Louly.:) Hence that being the title.:) It's a song that i heard because of this hot girl from youtube dancing to tecktonik. WHOA SHE IS LIKE. HOT OF THE HOT FRENCH GIRLS PLZ.:) HAHAHAHAHA!!!! I SHOW U VIDEO VIDEO VIDEO!
Anyway. Thanks to this posting.:) I may just have stopped myself from smoking one more cigarette.:) HEH-PEE! HAPPY! KAI XIN!
Anyway, i started this blog thingy quite late last night so i didn't have the mind to collect the events for the day.
So... Ytd. I was suppose to meet my "Wife" for a movie. "The Ugly Truth". Oh well, honestly, i just didn't feel like seeing her, especially with her classmates because there will be a chance i will see her and her "mysterious/unknown" boyfriend. Well saves me from a few sticks and a few emo periods.:)
Although i am quite shocked that she has a boyfriend, i'm glad that my choice is not bad. LOL At least got someone else wan. Oh well and they acted first. Well it shouldn't matter now, my friends asked me to wait patiently. Cause it's supposedly never too late.
Well.. Right now i just feel like clinging on, at least i don't leave the wound open there. I rather attempt to lie to myself than feeling the blow man... This takes me back to that day earlier last week, after i confessed, she say "i'll think about it". And i was like... WHOO! Maybe got chance!
Budden ltr that day... In the process in meeting up with my guy fren, i got many many signs. From my music mostly. And when i received and read the sms i got from her, i didn't even flinch. It was like i already knew it would not happen, just that it was how it would not happen yea.
So... Emo emo emo emo emo. EMO LIKE SHIT. LOL Drink oso dun wan drink, Smoke oso dun wan smoke. Didn't know what to do. But anyway, i got over it after a few days. Many thanks to my frens who gave me a listening ear, a couple of drinks and a totally tricked out dance.:) TECKTONIK FTW YEA!
Now that i think of it, when i blew off our appointment, she didn't ask why. And i think i already know why, my fren thought of the exact same reason, she felt awkward. Honestly, i won't feel awkward. Because i'm already like done with it. But for her, the shock still hasn't settled in yet.
She wrote on her blog, that she wanted to be taken back to the day i confessed, and said that she didn't want to lose me as a friend. Well, i'm thinking she was hoping i would take a look at her blog. And she got her wish, if she did wish for it. :p
Ytd the reason i called her out, was so to tell her that she has never lost me as a friend and she will never lose me as a friend. But i had a long talk with my other friend, and after that talk, i just didn't feel like seeing my "wife". Not because of the awkward-ness [i can deal with that so damn easily. LOL], but as i've already said, because of the potential of being being slit again.
Right now, i'm listening to Poum Poum Pi Dou by John Louly.:) Hence that being the title.:) It's a song that i heard because of this hot girl from youtube dancing to tecktonik. WHOA SHE IS LIKE. HOT OF THE HOT FRENCH GIRLS PLZ.:) HAHAHAHAHA!!!! I SHOW U VIDEO VIDEO VIDEO!
Anyway. Thanks to this posting.:) I may just have stopped myself from smoking one more cigarette.:) HEH-PEE! HAPPY! KAI XIN!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
First Ever Post In My First Ever Blog!!!
Today marks the day where i have started my FIRST EVER BLOG! YEEEESSSSSAAAAAHHHH!!
Dunno so happy for wad oso. LOL! So... Anyway, i feel that i should state the reason why I've started this blog.
It is to justify WHY I DO WHAT I DO. Things will never be clear to anyone, because, nobody knows how and why i react in a certain way. This blog will serve as a stepping stone for me to start sharing my cares and concerns in life to people, face to face.
I've actually typed a lot out here. But I've cancelled it away. Those things aren't meant to be said now, because they aren't fully processed. I can't force all the things out now. So i leave here as silent as i have been before.
Dunno so happy for wad oso. LOL! So... Anyway, i feel that i should state the reason why I've started this blog.
It is to justify WHY I DO WHAT I DO. Things will never be clear to anyone, because, nobody knows how and why i react in a certain way. This blog will serve as a stepping stone for me to start sharing my cares and concerns in life to people, face to face.
I've actually typed a lot out here. But I've cancelled it away. Those things aren't meant to be said now, because they aren't fully processed. I can't force all the things out now. So i leave here as silent as i have been before.
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