Rest?

I don't think so....

HEH HEH HEH HEH...

Waiting for my parents to go to dreamland...

Then OLEWA will go to paradise. MWAHAHHAAHAHAHA!!!!

Today...

Really ar...

I finished one pack in a day. Zzzzz... Guess i'm going to die soon huh? Oh too bad...

Shopping Shopping...

Today i went shopping with YH and Angie, before they left for their work.

Today's target was to get clothes or attire appropriate for me to dance SORRY SORRY for my tuition centre's dinner and dance.:)

First thing was that... I didn't have any preference on what to wear.

Second thing was that... I didn't know where to buy the clothes.

Third thing was that... I was quite shy to try on the new attires, cause i was not wearing appropriate pants or anything.

ANYWAYS....

We went to bugis to buy the items. We went to bugis street first, and... DIDN'T buy anything. HAHAHAHAH! Although we saw some interesting shirts and vests.:)

Next we went to Iluma, where i FINALLY got a shirt and vest.:) With much help from the two. At this point, Angie was like close to giving in to temptation to buy stuff for herself. LOL! And yh and i weren't exactly helping. :p

We then went to Manhattan Fish Market to makan. Food there was nice.:) Big in their serving too!!! The fish... FUYOH!!! BIG LIKE WAD ONLY! I LIKE...

Angie then left for work, she was running late. Well... Can't say it's not my fault. So... Apologies to both YH and Angie, i caused them both to be late today. I owe u both then?

After angie left for work, YH brought me to Marina Square. What was there, i tell u... I can ji tao take all my money and just throw it at the cashier and run out with bags of stuff. LOL!

I'm lazy to elaborate on the stuff. Later my heart really %$#@!.... YH! U WAIT! I GET MONEY FIRST! THEN I BUY TILL I SHIOK! HAHAHAHAHAH! I REALLY REALLY WANT THOSE SHOES! JUST WAIT! TML! OR LATER! I MAYBE GO BUY IT DAMNIT! WHOOO!!! $129.00 SIA!!!

Then i left for home.:) And nua till now.

I wanna thank everybody for the christmas wishes.:) I hope u all get ur christmas wishes!

Right now, I just wanna go downstairs and get something to eat. Cya guys.

Erm...

Merry Christmas. AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR [soon to come.:)]

Angie's Recommendation

Ok, now to post about my BREAKFAST today.

I hadn't had a decent meal since ytd afternoon. So i was kinda hungry. Scavanging my house for food, all i found were biscuits and maggie mee. I was kinda sick of maggie mee, so.... Biscuits lor... Then angie gave me a suggestion.

To eat a slice of bread with milo powder on it. [Her childhood favourite.] LOL! So i tried it this morning, [or AFTERNOON really. :p]

K here is PROOF, that i did make your "CHILDHOOD DELICACY" and eat it.

Damn... The internet is like really WTF now... Zzzzz




Milo on bread. I used the 3 in 1 type, cause the content in the original can all became like a rock like that. Cnt break it apart. Zzzz



And if ur wondering why the bread is brown? There it is. STARING RIGHT AT YOUR FACES. HAHAHAHHA!!!

Overall... Not bad lah... But i prefer just eating the powder by itself. Like what i'm doing right now. LOLOLOLOL!

ARGHHHH!!! I NEED ICE-CREAM!! NOW! BEN AND JERRY'S!!!! SMORES SMORES SMORES!!!!

Damn... Nvm i shall get more milo powder, in an attempt to curb my ice-cream needs now.

Inking... Inking...

Damn... Ink. Seems like the shit. Ha!

Watching London Ink now. When i'm supposed to be bloody hell sleeping.

This particular woman took an entire phoenix on her back, and she finished it in one go. Seriously power. She was crying when they were doing it halfway through, but she pulled through and got some fabulous art on her entire back.

ENTIRE BACK.

DAMN. I oso wan. But must wait till after army.

Actually i'm thinking that there is a very high chance i can't get it.

For one, everything that i said i would do, i never fulfil. Yet for everything i said i WON'T do, i do.

Time for a change?

Yes i think it's time for a change.

I need to go to the gym.
I need to go find a new hobby.
I need to go and find myself.
I need.
To.
I dunno.
I just need to do something.

Life is getting abit dull.

MONEY MONEY MONEY. STUDY STUDY STUDY.

BORING.

I wanna go to London.
I wanna go to LA.
I wanna go to Miami.
I wanna go to Japan.
I wanna go to France.
I wanna go to a new place.

I.
Wanna.
Bring.
My.
Nonsense.
TO ANOTHER LEVEL.

Ooooh... Man Vs Food....

Now, I WANNA TRY EVERY SINGLE DELICACY!

Travel & Living.
Thirst for the NEW.
A different way, to satisfy the senses.
To see with new EYES.

I just realised.

Everything that i have done.
Broke the rules that were set.
Guess i just LOVE breaking rules.

Anymore rules to break that give me a long lasting sense of satisfaction?

Driving my dad's car gave me a cheap thrill ride. Lasted pretty long yea.

I'm looking for something else next...

Maybe.. JUST maybe... Something to do with spraying. Not sure yet.

Holidays at the start

Bring me to this place.

Where i don't know nobody inside.

While help waits outside when i'm done.




Ok, anyways... These few days have been quite.... Erm... The only word i can think of is.. NUA. LOL! For the past few days, yh and angie have been staying over at my house. Which led to some stupid events, damn funny! My maid got shocked when she saw angie in the morning.

Still scold me naughty naughty! WAH LAO! I GOOD BOY HOR!


OH yar! I'm suppose to call yh now. Wah lazy ar...

I think i finish my parent's newspaper articles first. NABEI!!!! Got 200 over articles... Zzzzz... Nvm, it will be gone in a flash.

For today's plans... I'm gonna meet Yang Han and Angie to get me some clothes! Not really sure about the shoes, cause i really bo lui liao. Angie is ready for the gloves though, with her glue gun and all. LOL! Hopefully i have enough money later. Or else... I'm going back to my shell until my parents come back.:)

On another hand, My family is still in shanghai right now, and my older but still younger than me sis has not been feeling well these past few days. Mommy says everyone is getting quite tired. Oh well... Hope they all enjoy the remainder of the days. Wah since when i so good ar? LOL!

Guess, absence does really makes the heart grow fonder. 26 december!!! Partly happy oso because no need do news articles liao. :p

K have to be a good, hardworking and filial son. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! :p

Ask for more. Remember the Word to say.

The sky was clear, the weather seemed perfect. As they admired the scenery, something stopped them in their tracks. It was huge. The doors towered over them. The doors were made of wood. Placed directly in the middle was a heart. Lines were carved into the door. One line made a special impression. It was in the middle of the door. It stretched all the way from the top to the bottom. What was strange was, that the line wasn't carved on the inside of the heart.

Taking not much notice, everyone placed their hands on the door and pushed. The door wouldn't budge. They tried again. The door still couldn't be moved. They tried for what seemed like a long time.

After what seemed like eternity. Everyone gave up. They laid down on the ground, the ground was strange. It didn't feel hard, nor was it soft. It was just, comfortable. You could lie there for the rest of your life.

Time passed, and they all fell asleep. They were alone, or so they thought. A pair of eyes had been following them from the start. This mysterious figure thought to itself, "Maybe just one, it would be better i guess."

It descended from where it had been before, and whispered into the ears of a particular person, "Trust. Try asking to be let in, it may just work.".

It was like a lightning bolt, the guy sprung up from the ground. He was unsure of what had happened, he had felt a very intense pressure on his chest. He couldn't open his eyes, nor could he scream. Aside from the burning question on how an unknown person knew his name, all he had in his mind was the word, please.

He then proceeded to the door, placing each hand firmly on the door. Mustering all the strength he could, he pushed. The door could not be moved. "I must be crazy" he thought. "We tried as a group and failed, what makes me think i can even shift this door the tiniest bit?".

As he started to turn, he heard clicks. It seemed like the sound came from behind the door. Taking no chances, he spun right back towards the door and starting pushing at the door. Still no change. "Weird..." Trust thought, he was absolutely sure that he heard loud clicks from behind the door.

"I think i should wait for everyone else to wake up, before we try anything new." he said to himself. His mind started to wander as he faced his back towards the door. All of a sudden, he heard the sound of weeping. It sounded like a little kid.

He immediately got up and scanned the area. It was a little kid, crying profusely, running in his direction. He couldn't think of anything else, he crouched down as the kid came closer. The kid was carrying chains, the sound of the metal clashing against each other was almost as loud as the kid's sorrow.

His arms were open. An invitation for the kid to show him that he was there for the little fellow, the kid gladly took the offer. As he picked the kid up from the ground, he realised that the kid wasn't as heavy as he had anticipated, he was almost weightless, considering the fact he has those massive metal chains with him.

"Please! Please! Please!", those were the only words coming out of the kid's mouth. Trust was unsure of what the kid's request was. All the kid did was scream the word please. But as he try to comprehend further, it struck him. The kid was staring towards the door and screaming please. What was the kid trying to say? Was the kid trying to steer him and his friend aways from the door? Or was he encouraging them to open it?

Trust couldn't take it any longer, he put the kid down and scrambled across towards his friends. "HEY GUYS! HELP!", he hollered. Everyone else was startled, picking themselves up, everyone was quiet, giving him stares of death. "What are you guys staring at me so angrily for? There's a kid in distress and and and...", He couldn't finish his sentence. The kid was gone. Vanished into thin air.

All he heard, was the same metallic clash at the door. "Please guys follow me, i think i can open this door, the kid is over at the other side. He was crying his heart out. Please. Just trust me." Trust blurted.

Immediately after Trust finished his sentence, another voice broke the silence. "This better work, Trust. Oh well, your name already suggests it anyway." "Thanks Faith, it will, it will."

Trust placed his hands firmly on the doors once again, but this time, it was different. The air turned stagnant, it was very still. Everything was very quiet, as though it were a signal for something important to be said.

Trust opened his mouth. A gush of wind smashed on their faces, it was like facing a tsunami head on, only that it was made of wind instead of water.

If the scenery before was breath-taking, they would all have died at that instance. A garden greeted them, it was inviting. There was a tea table right in the middle of the landscape.

What was more interesting than every other thing, was the fact that there was a person dressed extremely well. He could be the epitomy of the phrase, dressed to impress. Sitting there, pouring what seemed like tea into the teacups placed at the tea table.

Trust sprang right into action, sprinting towards this guy. When he reached the table, he was interrupted even before he could start his sentence. "It is quite rude not to introduce yourself before you start a conversation. Wait, were you going to start? Or were you going to question me?", this guy questioned.

He couldn't waste anymore time. "Hi, my name is trust. I was looking for a kid, he was carrying chains with him and crying very badly, have you seen him?" trust said with his most polite voice. "Now that is better, Hi Trust. No i have not seen such a kid, it is quite impossible for a kid to be carrying chains and running around don't you think?" he replied.

Relax, Take It Easy.

I got left hanging, because i didn't hear anything nice.

Maybe it was because i was selfish.

Oh well.

I'm selfish.

Because it is all about me.

The words i said, were too late.

Maybe i should have said it first.

Before i put on my selfish mask.

As i'm left here hanging.

I'm thinking...

Should someone get me down?

If anyone lets me get down.

Do you wonder what will happen?

I already know.

So i don't wanna be let down.

Cheering me up.

Pulls me higher.

And then i'll be left hanging even higher than before.

And when i look down.

I'll feel even more terrified and lost.

That is what makes me...

I don't know.

Do any of you know?

Music affects my mood very seriously. Therefore, my emotions are shown through my music. My choice of music shows my mood. Get it? You don't have too, although i am pretty certain it is very easy to understand.

There is a piano right across.

In the other room.

If i had continued learning.

You would hear sorrow and rhythm having a duet together every night.

If i could spilt myself into each individual mood.

I would choose to be the one who portrays sorrow.

So i can cry my heart out every night.

Tug at my heart.

Make sure i'm still human.

After that, make sure i'm still alive.

There is a very deep ocean of thoughts and regrets inside of me.

I could drown myself within myself.

And none of you would hear me calling.

None of you would see me calling.

None of you can smell the stench from my rot.

This room is filled with me.

This is my graveyard.

This is also my sanctuary.

This is my inner shell.

Can you see the barriers?

You told me to open up myself.

One has to be close to me.

That is barrier number 1.

One has to know where my house is.

That is barrier number 2.

One has to be let into my house.

That is barrier number 3.

One has to be let into my room.

That is barrier number 4.

One has to understand that i need to be comfortable.

That is barrier number 5.

One has to know that even when i'm comfortable i may not talk.

That is barrier number 6.

One has to know when to talk.

That is barrier number 7.

One has to know when to listen.

That is barrier number 8.

One has to be someone i'm comfortable be in the first place.

That is barrier number 9.

One has to be someone whom i feel i can trust.

That is barrier number 10.

One must understand me.

That barrier.

Is.

Unbreakable.

Full stories are never known with me.

Even if you have broken all these barriers.

These are the physical barriers.

Can u find me?

Within these vines and spikes and traps?

You will not be saving me.

You will not be helping me.

Because.

You are bringing me outside.

Where i'm powerless.

Where i crumble even easily than when i'm inside.

Where cuts turn into scars.

Where burns scar.

Where words tear away at a vulnerable kid.

Where emotions are swung around wildly.

In the end.

It's clear.

I'm terrified.

I'm trying my best.

I'm ok.

I'm ok.

I'm ok.

I'm gonna relax.

I'm gonna take it easy.

When i let rivers flow.

It is always replenished.

For every single drop.

I regret having let it drip away for others to see.

Introvert.

Cancer.

Selfish.

Complicated.

All of them.

I try to hide.

My armour is always ready.

Recently.

I thought that i was ready to drop it all.

I guess i just let the chains loose.

Yet i got torn apart.

As i'm gathering pieces.

Can someone watch my back?

Can someone help me gather the pieces back?

Can someone help me put the pieces in place together?